here I am again
I thought I wasn't going to write in this anymore, but here I am. I just officially failed my art history class. what a waste of time and money. my parents are gonna be pretty pissed but oh well. unfortunatly life goes on. it just occured to me how tired I really am right now. I work at four so maybe I sleep some before I go in. My boyfriend and I both got into accidents this morning. i just lost control and ran into a ditch and got stuck for awhile. He passed someone lost control and crashed down in a ditch right by a telephone pole. His was a bit worse.
Anyway, last night was a bad night. I went and took my exam for my night class, and then went and met my "friend". This time he didn't even pretend to be controling himself. He just pulled it out and put my hand on it. I would take it back off he would put it back on. I wasn't even in his car for 10 minutes. Usually it takes a lot for guys to get me horny. He gets me excited really fast though. I like the way he looks at me, and touches me. this will sound weird but I like to resist, i like when he just keeps touching me after I push his hands off, or if he were to kiss my neck or chest while I was pushing away. If there where somewhere comfortable and halfway romantic, I'd fuck him in a heart beat. The thing is last week or the week before, he said do you want to I have a condom (he had one in the console of his car) this week he said I wish I had a condom. So apparently he has already used it on another girl. Big turn off. Oh I just thought of something....when he said he had one in his car we were in his camero. Last night we were in his thunderbird. It doesn't matter, he probably has been with someone else. This whole thing is really slutty of me. Besides, when ever he puts his hands between my legs I can't get off because all I can think about is him fucking Celesta. That absolutley grosses me out. I will probably never be able to have sex with someone who has fucked her. He is using me once again. He seemed so much like his old self last night that. He even talked about himself a lot again, changing the subject every five seconds, and he acted so much like what he did in highschool I actually got pissed off, stopped and started making a big deal about it, I cryed and kind of raised my voice. Nothing like what it could have been, or what i was dying to do. Anyway he seems to be back to his old selfish self again.
On a lighter note, If tim and I brake up there is another guy who is waiting to step up, he is so handsome. He is tall and has dark hair and neat eyes and lips, he's pretty big. Not fat either............Maybe I'll talk about it later. I'd rather sleep.
Anyway, last night was a bad night. I went and took my exam for my night class, and then went and met my "friend". This time he didn't even pretend to be controling himself. He just pulled it out and put my hand on it. I would take it back off he would put it back on. I wasn't even in his car for 10 minutes. Usually it takes a lot for guys to get me horny. He gets me excited really fast though. I like the way he looks at me, and touches me. this will sound weird but I like to resist, i like when he just keeps touching me after I push his hands off, or if he were to kiss my neck or chest while I was pushing away. If there where somewhere comfortable and halfway romantic, I'd fuck him in a heart beat. The thing is last week or the week before, he said do you want to I have a condom (he had one in the console of his car) this week he said I wish I had a condom. So apparently he has already used it on another girl. Big turn off. Oh I just thought of something....when he said he had one in his car we were in his camero. Last night we were in his thunderbird. It doesn't matter, he probably has been with someone else. This whole thing is really slutty of me. Besides, when ever he puts his hands between my legs I can't get off because all I can think about is him fucking Celesta. That absolutley grosses me out. I will probably never be able to have sex with someone who has fucked her. He is using me once again. He seemed so much like his old self last night that. He even talked about himself a lot again, changing the subject every five seconds, and he acted so much like what he did in highschool I actually got pissed off, stopped and started making a big deal about it, I cryed and kind of raised my voice. Nothing like what it could have been, or what i was dying to do. Anyway he seems to be back to his old selfish self again.
On a lighter note, If tim and I brake up there is another guy who is waiting to step up, he is so handsome. He is tall and has dark hair and neat eyes and lips, he's pretty big. Not fat either............Maybe I'll talk about it later. I'd rather sleep.