Sex-VS-Love
This is a touchy subject for me, since I think the way I look at the physical part to relationship's has been...well...to say the least alittle wierd since most men seem to not think about it the way I do, and it's possibly the biggest problem I seem to have with every girl I've been with.
When I first..ehem...had sex, it was the greatest expierience for me. It was with...ehem...My ex, in high school back then and I didn't give much thought about what it was. I did it..it felt good...what ever. After a while having sex with her, I noticed something was missing. She liked it so much back then, that when we were done she would want to do it again...over and over and...well...HOUR'S!!!! After the obvious set of what men perfure to call "Blue ball's", I quickly realized that I was just a piece to her back then. I guess it wasn't much of a thing to me since, well let's be honest, it's every man's dream to be a sex toy to someone when your 18 or something. But after my first break-up with her I realized that there wasn't ANYTHING THERE! I wanted to FEEL something. I wanted to hold someone and look into there eye's and feel there breath and skin upon mine.(Yes, I suppose this isn't something most would wan't to here.) I wanted to make love. I never could. To this day, every girl I've ever been with has looked at sex as "having fun". Isn't there more to it then that? Ok, I guess it took a while to stop being such a prude about it. This was one of the MANY arguement's me and my ex had. That she wanted to fuck, and I wanted to make love. It wasn't something she could do, since sex was just a fun thing to her. Which I think is funny now since she said that that was the only thing I wanted from her, which was never the case. It was the ONLY way I was ever able to get some effection from the cold one. She just never knew how to open up that way. Suppose she, like alot of the women I've been with thought it was korny...it probably is, but it mean's something to ME. I don't expect anyone to understand, but I do expect them to appreciate it.
Big deal, I think of it differently.I'm sorry I'm a druelling romantic. Anyway, after arguement's a galor about how she's used to it being done to her like that and that being more like this, I stopped and realized that there was no compermise with it so I did it. Al except the role-playing thing which was alittle unconfortable if you knew what it was she wanted me to role-play as. She liked to be dominated...I can't do that all the time. I think alot of are comunication would have been better if she just was able to be more pationate in bed instead of a fucking loon:-) Don't get me wrong, now...there's still a pig in me yet.;-)
I've also come to realize that...I can't be a constant prude in bed either. After being with her for three year's I've come to learn that sometime's Sex IS needed. It's not ALWAY'S supposed to be serious, sometime's it need's to be fun to be pationate. Hell, I'm not telling but I've read a couple of book's,lol.
Piont being, it was hard for me to realize how much balance play's a part in ANY type of commitment. I'm typing this not to tell any who might read this, but so that I can remind myself that sometime's I have to be a BADBOY:-)
But not to forget to fight for a GOODGIRL once and awhile.
When I first..ehem...had sex, it was the greatest expierience for me. It was with...ehem...My ex, in high school back then and I didn't give much thought about what it was. I did it..it felt good...what ever. After a while having sex with her, I noticed something was missing. She liked it so much back then, that when we were done she would want to do it again...over and over and...well...HOUR'S!!!! After the obvious set of what men perfure to call "Blue ball's", I quickly realized that I was just a piece to her back then. I guess it wasn't much of a thing to me since, well let's be honest, it's every man's dream to be a sex toy to someone when your 18 or something. But after my first break-up with her I realized that there wasn't ANYTHING THERE! I wanted to FEEL something. I wanted to hold someone and look into there eye's and feel there breath and skin upon mine.(Yes, I suppose this isn't something most would wan't to here.) I wanted to make love. I never could. To this day, every girl I've ever been with has looked at sex as "having fun". Isn't there more to it then that? Ok, I guess it took a while to stop being such a prude about it. This was one of the MANY arguement's me and my ex had. That she wanted to fuck, and I wanted to make love. It wasn't something she could do, since sex was just a fun thing to her. Which I think is funny now since she said that that was the only thing I wanted from her, which was never the case. It was the ONLY way I was ever able to get some effection from the cold one. She just never knew how to open up that way. Suppose she, like alot of the women I've been with thought it was korny...it probably is, but it mean's something to ME. I don't expect anyone to understand, but I do expect them to appreciate it.
Big deal, I think of it differently.I'm sorry I'm a druelling romantic. Anyway, after arguement's a galor about how she's used to it being done to her like that and that being more like this, I stopped and realized that there was no compermise with it so I did it. Al except the role-playing thing which was alittle unconfortable if you knew what it was she wanted me to role-play as. She liked to be dominated...I can't do that all the time. I think alot of are comunication would have been better if she just was able to be more pationate in bed instead of a fucking loon:-) Don't get me wrong, now...there's still a pig in me yet.;-)
I've also come to realize that...I can't be a constant prude in bed either. After being with her for three year's I've come to learn that sometime's Sex IS needed. It's not ALWAY'S supposed to be serious, sometime's it need's to be fun to be pationate. Hell, I'm not telling but I've read a couple of book's,lol.
Piont being, it was hard for me to realize how much balance play's a part in ANY type of commitment. I'm typing this not to tell any who might read this, but so that I can remind myself that sometime's I have to be a BADBOY:-)
But not to forget to fight for a GOODGIRL once and awhile.