May 12, 2008 17:28
For once in my life, I did not get lucky. I don't believe in luck. Luck is for shallow people. Luck can be reasoned by a series of logical events in a chronological point leading up to the point in time where one usually becomes 'lucky'. I was not lucky this time. Somehow, someway I've always managed to get what I want somehow.
I've always been able to somehow get my way, no matter the stress, or obstacles, as long as my way was within reason. Well, this year I am not so lucky.
UF changed their admission policies for transfers. Me fucking up at FAU screws me in the end. I have no one to blame but myself. Any Liberal Arts program, ala English, History, Religion, etc. has become cut. They are all limited access. I could change my major to something business, but the UF Business program only accepts admissions for Fall 2009.
I can't wait another year.
UCF and FSU are not for me. I've made an effort to do everything possible to get into UF. For once in the past decade I actually average over a 3.0 gpa, but it is to late now. I haven't done this well in school/life in so long. Maybe not 11th grade? That was a good year for me. I was a semester too late. Had I figured this out a semester earlier. I'd have been on the UF campus today enjoying the cool breeze, and gorgeous sky.
I love Gainesville, but I can't wait forever to go into the real world.
FAU welcomes me back. I go back to the twilight zone known as 'Boca Raton'. I am so much more mature now than I was four years ago when I was going to FAU. I'm just going to go in, get out and make the best of it. I have my whole life ahead of me to enjoy it. I got a taste of what I love, and I'm going to work for it.
I'll miss you Gainesville. I'll visit. However, it just never worked out between us, no matter how many good times we had. Somehow I knew it would come to this...