Uh-Oh...
Well, my world was just messed with a little. Apparently what i wanted to happen over the next month cannot happen. I have found a girl that i like, nay, that i love. She is...very close to me, and i can no longer wait as i planned to wait for a month to be over. My feelings are too strong for me to deny anymore. I will not say her name, but perhaps a bit of a blurb on her will be nice.
She's smart, funny, incredibly talented, and beautiful. I always thought that she made me feel more than i actually was. But, a friend told me that i was wrong. My friend told me that this girl made me feel not more than what i was, but made me feel what...who i actually was. I realize now that I have made some mistakes, though they seemed justified. But this girl is too...too precious to me for me to wait any longer.
Of course, there is always competition, friend and foe alike. I may perhaps not be able to overcome that competition. I do not know all her feelings for them, though i know she has feelings for me. And i won't lay down and let the feelings i have die. I can't wait any longer. I would like to apologize to laura. Sorry i can't wait.
The reason? Lets just say that something happened to change my plans. Something that told me i cannot wait, cannot plan. Now is not the time for thoughts or plans. Now is the time for action.
Here is the first-
Golden Shadow
I walk out in the rain
pouring down from the sky
joining me in my extended mourning.
Tears turn to rain, the sky crys with me
A golden shadow decends upon the land
A princess, locked in a tower
A tower of ice.
Cold and alone, perhaps.
Knights and heros trying to scale the tower
I am one of them. I will fight the rest.
This princess i want, this princess i will fight for
I will fight, with everything i have, to be with her.
I will not wait, i cannot wait. For then it would be to late
Basically, i love this girl more than I ever thought possible. I dream of her every night, and sometimes during the day.
I think we all know who it is, though i dare not say it.
In the night i cry, cry for the one who is not mine. I cry because I want her in the night, to hold her in my arms. To wrap my arms around her, listening to her soft breath; sweet as bee pollen on a midsummer's breath. Her lips soft and cool, yet they light my heart ablaze. A wild passion in my soul, calling out to be freed.
But the moment that i want the most...is lying in her arms, my head on her chest, listening to her heartbeating, beating to calm the malestrom in my head. Calming, beating, my heart one with hers.
Love is knowing that, no matter what happens, no matter how many miles over the sands of time we cross, love is knowing that that person is the one you want to be with. Love is wanting to be with them...but more so wanting them to be happy, no matter what the cost. Wanting them to be happy, even if you are not. Thats what i feel know. No matter what anyone and everyone else things of her, no matter what she meant to the rest of the world, she now means everything to me...and she always will. Thats why i fight for her, no matter what the cost.
That's why i can't wait...won't wait...I will fight with all i've got.
Toodles!
Ellis A. Stackpole
She's smart, funny, incredibly talented, and beautiful. I always thought that she made me feel more than i actually was. But, a friend told me that i was wrong. My friend told me that this girl made me feel not more than what i was, but made me feel what...who i actually was. I realize now that I have made some mistakes, though they seemed justified. But this girl is too...too precious to me for me to wait any longer.
Of course, there is always competition, friend and foe alike. I may perhaps not be able to overcome that competition. I do not know all her feelings for them, though i know she has feelings for me. And i won't lay down and let the feelings i have die. I can't wait any longer. I would like to apologize to laura. Sorry i can't wait.
The reason? Lets just say that something happened to change my plans. Something that told me i cannot wait, cannot plan. Now is not the time for thoughts or plans. Now is the time for action.
Here is the first-
Golden Shadow
I walk out in the rain
pouring down from the sky
joining me in my extended mourning.
Tears turn to rain, the sky crys with me
A golden shadow decends upon the land
A princess, locked in a tower
A tower of ice.
Cold and alone, perhaps.
Knights and heros trying to scale the tower
I am one of them. I will fight the rest.
This princess i want, this princess i will fight for
I will fight, with everything i have, to be with her.
I will not wait, i cannot wait. For then it would be to late
Basically, i love this girl more than I ever thought possible. I dream of her every night, and sometimes during the day.
I think we all know who it is, though i dare not say it.
In the night i cry, cry for the one who is not mine. I cry because I want her in the night, to hold her in my arms. To wrap my arms around her, listening to her soft breath; sweet as bee pollen on a midsummer's breath. Her lips soft and cool, yet they light my heart ablaze. A wild passion in my soul, calling out to be freed.
But the moment that i want the most...is lying in her arms, my head on her chest, listening to her heartbeating, beating to calm the malestrom in my head. Calming, beating, my heart one with hers.
Love is knowing that, no matter what happens, no matter how many miles over the sands of time we cross, love is knowing that that person is the one you want to be with. Love is wanting to be with them...but more so wanting them to be happy, no matter what the cost. Wanting them to be happy, even if you are not. Thats what i feel know. No matter what anyone and everyone else things of her, no matter what she meant to the rest of the world, she now means everything to me...and she always will. Thats why i fight for her, no matter what the cost.
That's why i can't wait...won't wait...I will fight with all i've got.
Toodles!
Ellis A. Stackpole