What Is Wrong With the World?
Nothing, God is good. Well, a lot is wrong with the world but God is still good if you catch my drift. I'm sure you don't. My what a jerkish thing to say. Onward. Life is unusual. We all have secret identities. Or at least enough people have let me see through theirs that I tend to think it's universal. It's important. Security, both emotional and physical. You can't let people get to know you. The first instinct is to just play your part, put on the glasses and hope that no one will recognize you. And it works. Sort of. Am I a good person? I'd like to think so, and I've been told so, but not really. Anyone would do what I do. Some people would do more. Some people wouldn't let friendships crumble and deteriorate the way I do. I am guilty of this. But I do what I can and I play my part. I've got enough secrets to protect.
This rant is stupid. I'm not making sense. Coming into new classes is always such an odd experience for me. I keep accidentally laughing at new students, or at least at people who don't know their way around North Campus. I always feel terrible because when I was a freshman I was absolutely terrified of this same reaction I think. Probably not in the same way. I just can't stand to lose anonyity in public (or as my words would indicate, in private). People that know me too well make me uncomfortable, with notable exceptions. The point I'm trying to make is. Is....be human, and it's hard sometimes, but just let yourself be human. Live life. I think I'm doing that these days. Things are getting better. I can deal with myself and I can deal with the world and I can try to help other people do the same thing. I can think of nothing better to do with my time.
LOVE,
WILL
This rant is stupid. I'm not making sense. Coming into new classes is always such an odd experience for me. I keep accidentally laughing at new students, or at least at people who don't know their way around North Campus. I always feel terrible because when I was a freshman I was absolutely terrified of this same reaction I think. Probably not in the same way. I just can't stand to lose anonyity in public (or as my words would indicate, in private). People that know me too well make me uncomfortable, with notable exceptions. The point I'm trying to make is. Is....be human, and it's hard sometimes, but just let yourself be human. Live life. I think I'm doing that these days. Things are getting better. I can deal with myself and I can deal with the world and I can try to help other people do the same thing. I can think of nothing better to do with my time.
LOVE,
WILL