Gary needs jewels for his log cabin!
Well it's obvious she admitted it she doesn't know what she wants. She called me today and woke me up this evening and hasn't called back. She had a great time in West Virginia trying to throw everything in my face. Taking shots from all sides and you can tell she's trying to upset me and bring me down but it's not going to happen. I've been through it all before so fuck it. I don't need that shit and I just don't want anything to do with her anymore. I told her to go be with him but they won't do anything since of the distance. But her mom seems to like him so whatever she can be with him. They went to Homecoming and watched the game and a movie. It's funny how quickly someones feelings change and how she tries and say it was all my fault for what happen. Which I know some of it might be but not all of it she needs to go back over it with herself because most of the shit she flipped out on me there wasn't even a reason. For hugging a friend for a second, talking to other girls or hanging out with my friend Nyssa. So I just want my hoodie back and be on my merly little way and look forward and not have any regrets. Just learn from the past is all you can do and as I do all the time. It just tears me apart when I thought she was happy and knew what she wanted and now she thinks she knows what she wants again. So yeah I should've known better but like an idiot I try.
I can't feel this way today
And I said that I am tired
So go to sleep and close your eyes
I'm sorry
For all the sin
For all deception
You know it's hard to face you
When I know what you did
You're sorry
Stay far away from you
I'm sick and tired of you too
But there's the way that you move?
Dressed up in lies
Beds in truth
You tried everything you said
But I see that you can't be
What you were before
I'm laughing
Please understand these words
You are nothing anymore
And your skin it hides your waste, your age
You're lifeless
Stay far away from you
I'm sick and tired of you too
Theres only one way to hide it
Just paint your eyes it bides the time
But there's the way that you move
Dressed up in lies
Beds in truth
What if I find my way to it
Confinement of my mind
Encased in lies...
Why are they doing this?
They said when you got here the whole thing started.
Who are you, what are you?
Where did you come from?
I think you're the cause, of all this,
I think you're evil!
Evil!!!
Again, you fucking did it again
Stay far away from you
I'm sick and tired of you too
What if I find my way to it
Confinement of mind
Encased in lies, lies, lies
What kills me is knowing I don't know how long I'll live here. I'll try an take pictures of this house from the outside and inside for you people to see. I can't stand it here and either can my mother and sister but it's like I'm the only one interested in doing anything about it. It bothers me to no end. I mean seriously, my Aunt was talking last night while I was over to my cousin Josh about her buying a new computer with the money when they get the money for selling the house. Meaning my grandfathers the one I used to live in and she wants to buy some other stuff but I don't remember it. So I thought maybe if mom can get the money together that she gets and I pitch in some and my sister we can get a place. I brought it up to her this morning or last night and she was like "Well I don't know" "I don't know if we can find anything" I mean how will she know if she doesn't try. I mean grant they have to split it inbetween my Aunt Sue, Aunt Darlyn, Uncle Rich, my Aunt Pam who is in Virginia and my mother. But depending how much they sell it for we can still take a gander it won't hurt to try. I can't stand it here and something about winter coming though I love winter I don't want to live here for the winter. Not sure why but yeah. I really wish I wasn't the only one seeing this through. Maybe I should be looking for my own place now that I'm 20 I don't know. But I want to have a roomate and plus now that Andrea is gone and out of my life I need to work on getting my license and get a car. Get car insurance and gas and what not heh. Which should provide more comfort in my life.
I can't feel this way today
And I said that I am tired
So go to sleep and close your eyes
I'm sorry
For all the sin
For all deception
You know it's hard to face you
When I know what you did
You're sorry
Stay far away from you
I'm sick and tired of you too
But there's the way that you move?
Dressed up in lies
Beds in truth
You tried everything you said
But I see that you can't be
What you were before
I'm laughing
Please understand these words
You are nothing anymore
And your skin it hides your waste, your age
You're lifeless
Stay far away from you
I'm sick and tired of you too
Theres only one way to hide it
Just paint your eyes it bides the time
But there's the way that you move
Dressed up in lies
Beds in truth
What if I find my way to it
Confinement of my mind
Encased in lies...
Why are they doing this?
They said when you got here the whole thing started.
Who are you, what are you?
Where did you come from?
I think you're the cause, of all this,
I think you're evil!
Evil!!!
Again, you fucking did it again
Stay far away from you
I'm sick and tired of you too
What if I find my way to it
Confinement of mind
Encased in lies, lies, lies
What kills me is knowing I don't know how long I'll live here. I'll try an take pictures of this house from the outside and inside for you people to see. I can't stand it here and either can my mother and sister but it's like I'm the only one interested in doing anything about it. It bothers me to no end. I mean seriously, my Aunt was talking last night while I was over to my cousin Josh about her buying a new computer with the money when they get the money for selling the house. Meaning my grandfathers the one I used to live in and she wants to buy some other stuff but I don't remember it. So I thought maybe if mom can get the money together that she gets and I pitch in some and my sister we can get a place. I brought it up to her this morning or last night and she was like "Well I don't know" "I don't know if we can find anything" I mean how will she know if she doesn't try. I mean grant they have to split it inbetween my Aunt Sue, Aunt Darlyn, Uncle Rich, my Aunt Pam who is in Virginia and my mother. But depending how much they sell it for we can still take a gander it won't hurt to try. I can't stand it here and something about winter coming though I love winter I don't want to live here for the winter. Not sure why but yeah. I really wish I wasn't the only one seeing this through. Maybe I should be looking for my own place now that I'm 20 I don't know. But I want to have a roomate and plus now that Andrea is gone and out of my life I need to work on getting my license and get a car. Get car insurance and gas and what not heh. Which should provide more comfort in my life.