Long Time and No See!
Hey hey hey, what's up ye ol' journal? Seriously, I haven't written in this thing in years. I think Vincent and I had too many gayass fights and our own lives to deal with to bother using this journal anymore. Which frankly speaking, truly was a shame. We grew apart, which is unfortunate - considering we were childhood friends and best friends at one point in time - but of course, things shall mend and go back to the way they were, or at least something relatively close and/or positive in nature.
So, what's up with me: Christine? I've been a lot happier as of late. I'm on antidepressants now. I've been taking them for about...a month and a half now? They're working, I think. It's Cipralex, by the way. At first, I used to get a lot of cramps and feel a tad barfy...but now, I feel a happier and positive about myself, life and just little things I took for granted. I don't see life as a struggle and I don't fret upon the idea of meeting and befriending new people. I see almost every day as a new adventure and I savour and salvage every oppurtunity, every chance I get. Really, it sounds crazy and kind of like of the pinnacle of eternal optimist, but I really do feel this way! The effects must be kicking in (well, it has been four weeks already, so it's rather plausible)!
I was also given Lorazepan for extreme panic attacks or moments of intense stress (which I have to use sparingly and haven't as of yet) and a natural supplement called Melatonin to help me sleep at night. I wasn't really sleepy at all, but then I took two tablets a few minutes ago and now I'm seriously ready to pass out at my desk. It works so well! I get a nice sleep now...unfortunately however, I always managed to wake up at like, 4:30 a.m. SERIOUSLY? Meh, but whatever I guess. It's better than having sleepless, insomniac nights. I go to school every morning now! Also, I'm ALWAYS on time! It's a record, hahaha. Well, things are looking up anyways...
My boyfriend's been great as of late. I don't think you knew this, but I have a boyfriend now! His name is Matthew and we've been dating for approximately two years. He used to be kind of a dick, but so was I. However, he's such been such a sweetheart as of recent! He's been making so many efforts to treat me like a well-deserving princess, like a lady and not a girl. He speaks to me respectfully, compliments me wholeheartedly and spends him cash on me. Not that a boy should by entitled to do so, but anyone who knows Matthew knows he's really frugal, so it's a big step for him to buy me tiny gifts like chocolates, sweets, toys and flowers! Really, it is! I'm so proud of him for making an effort, though I can see why! I am too...I love the crap out of the man! He's an all-around perfect sweetheart! He's kind, gentle, sweet, affectionate, CRAZY loyal and obedient, forgiving and caring! Not to mention oh so cute and handsome, ahhhh! <3 Okay, I'm going insane with all my passionate baby talk and stuff, but I can't help it! He's everything I've ever wanted in a guy! :3
Oh, and something just hit me a few weeks ago. I had been putting all my friends - Vincent, to a certain extent included in this - and my family too, on a shelf for a year or so since I started dating Matt. When I started dating him, he became my top priority. My grades, hobbies, friends and families managed to slip away. Well, I've been trying to regain myself and my trust, love and respect from my loved ones. I came to realize that you cannot just put such important people on a shelf so very high and so very far from your grasp. The relationships will get dusty, so dusty to the point of being unrecognizable. They will no longer be a part of you and be only memories that have tarnished and withered away. So I thought, I must gain them back! In that, I've been making an effort to be a bigger part of my family and friends lives. I've also engaged more in my hobbies - art, music, anime/manga and gaming - why not? I got time to kill now that I have ONE EFFIN' CLASS! -le sobz-
Meh, it's for the better at this point.
Anyways, I'm DEAD tired. I hoped you enjoyed me writing in you, journal! I hope you do too, Vincent! <3
Love you guys, PEACE!
- Christine
So, what's up with me: Christine? I've been a lot happier as of late. I'm on antidepressants now. I've been taking them for about...a month and a half now? They're working, I think. It's Cipralex, by the way. At first, I used to get a lot of cramps and feel a tad barfy...but now, I feel a happier and positive about myself, life and just little things I took for granted. I don't see life as a struggle and I don't fret upon the idea of meeting and befriending new people. I see almost every day as a new adventure and I savour and salvage every oppurtunity, every chance I get. Really, it sounds crazy and kind of like of the pinnacle of eternal optimist, but I really do feel this way! The effects must be kicking in (well, it has been four weeks already, so it's rather plausible)!
I was also given Lorazepan for extreme panic attacks or moments of intense stress (which I have to use sparingly and haven't as of yet) and a natural supplement called Melatonin to help me sleep at night. I wasn't really sleepy at all, but then I took two tablets a few minutes ago and now I'm seriously ready to pass out at my desk. It works so well! I get a nice sleep now...unfortunately however, I always managed to wake up at like, 4:30 a.m. SERIOUSLY? Meh, but whatever I guess. It's better than having sleepless, insomniac nights. I go to school every morning now! Also, I'm ALWAYS on time! It's a record, hahaha. Well, things are looking up anyways...
My boyfriend's been great as of late. I don't think you knew this, but I have a boyfriend now! His name is Matthew and we've been dating for approximately two years. He used to be kind of a dick, but so was I. However, he's such been such a sweetheart as of recent! He's been making so many efforts to treat me like a well-deserving princess, like a lady and not a girl. He speaks to me respectfully, compliments me wholeheartedly and spends him cash on me. Not that a boy should by entitled to do so, but anyone who knows Matthew knows he's really frugal, so it's a big step for him to buy me tiny gifts like chocolates, sweets, toys and flowers! Really, it is! I'm so proud of him for making an effort, though I can see why! I am too...I love the crap out of the man! He's an all-around perfect sweetheart! He's kind, gentle, sweet, affectionate, CRAZY loyal and obedient, forgiving and caring! Not to mention oh so cute and handsome, ahhhh! <3 Okay, I'm going insane with all my passionate baby talk and stuff, but I can't help it! He's everything I've ever wanted in a guy! :3
Oh, and something just hit me a few weeks ago. I had been putting all my friends - Vincent, to a certain extent included in this - and my family too, on a shelf for a year or so since I started dating Matt. When I started dating him, he became my top priority. My grades, hobbies, friends and families managed to slip away. Well, I've been trying to regain myself and my trust, love and respect from my loved ones. I came to realize that you cannot just put such important people on a shelf so very high and so very far from your grasp. The relationships will get dusty, so dusty to the point of being unrecognizable. They will no longer be a part of you and be only memories that have tarnished and withered away. So I thought, I must gain them back! In that, I've been making an effort to be a bigger part of my family and friends lives. I've also engaged more in my hobbies - art, music, anime/manga and gaming - why not? I got time to kill now that I have ONE EFFIN' CLASS! -le sobz-
Meh, it's for the better at this point.
Anyways, I'm DEAD tired. I hoped you enjoyed me writing in you, journal! I hope you do too, Vincent! <3
Love you guys, PEACE!
- Christine