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I can't seem to stop falling in love these days.
Stephen.
Ben.
It's all so tiring to continue with this facade. I always have to be the happy one. I always have to be the mediator. I'm sick of it, I want to tell them all what I'm really thinking, but that'll just make everything worse. It's like I'm sacrificing my own feelings for theirs.
Why do I keep doing this?
(It's because you know. You know what will happen if you slip up. If you fail.)
Everything is falling apart, but nobody seems to notice.
My arms. So raw. So sore. The vitamins aren't working, nothings working anymore, I have nobody to talk to, I wish I did, but there's nothing.
There's nothing left for me. They won't even blink an eye if they see this, they won't fucking care, nobody. Not a single one of them.
God damnit, I want to die.
I want to die I want to die I want to die I want to die I want to die I want to die I want to die I want to die-
please.
helpme.
Stephen.
Ben.
It's all so tiring to continue with this facade. I always have to be the happy one. I always have to be the mediator. I'm sick of it, I want to tell them all what I'm really thinking, but that'll just make everything worse. It's like I'm sacrificing my own feelings for theirs.
Why do I keep doing this?
(It's because you know. You know what will happen if you slip up. If you fail.)
Everything is falling apart, but nobody seems to notice.
My arms. So raw. So sore. The vitamins aren't working, nothings working anymore, I have nobody to talk to, I wish I did, but there's nothing.
There's nothing left for me. They won't even blink an eye if they see this, they won't fucking care, nobody. Not a single one of them.
God damnit, I want to die.
I want to die I want to die I want to die I want to die I want to die I want to die I want to die I want to die-
please.
helpme.