just to say hey
I had to write somthing cause looking at the same thing gets old. Oh to whom it may concern. I know when Seth is coming, also if anyone knows of a dodge neon or similar four dour car please notify me. It's not for me its for Seth.
So the plan is for Seth and me to purchase a car, then we will drive it back to Texas were i will spend two days max, and then return to (my real home ) i love you Cait.
Cait. you were so right i am glad that i have said what i felt like i needed to say. The only thing is, is that i would have rather said it in person. The reason for that is because its what you deserve (part of the whole how a woman is sopposed to be treated). Cait i truly feel that the way things have been said and what my actions have said sometimes completely differ, for that im sorry. Like i was trying to explain on the phone last night was that while i was trying to deal with all of my problems i was completely forgetting that you also have a life and its not all about me . Im sorry. I was so sucked in by my crapload of problems that i couldent even think cleary enough to sort through them. It felt like i was in a black hole or somthing when i finally woke up i felt so foggy and disorented all i could think about was what was at hand. I think that we just need to go hang out and say fuck it cause were getting so stressed out that its like we've lost focus on the point. And the point is, is our love for each other and the joy of our friendship and the friendship of our friends (OR MAYBE THATS JUST ME YOURE USALLLY ON TOP OF THINGS LIKE THAT IM THE CRAZY ONE ). I think i was just foccused on all the details i couldent see the big picture ( RIGHT KNOW THATS THE BIG PICTURE) and i just needed to suck it up. well babe im ready to rock and roll youre the wind beneath my wings and you can take me beyound this universe and the next i have no fear. Just like my faith in Christ i put my life in youre guidence. youve never done me wrong and i have no fear that you ever will. i feel that by me saying that i love you doesnt do you justice in how i feel for you so ill say it in German not that it means anything different but it sounds cool. Iche libe diche= i love you. Tu es me amore= you are my love. And of course that waz spanish.
But most of all i just want to hold you. All i see is rolling hills. Youre hair flowing ever so as the cool brease rushes threw like God breathing new life into youre body. The sun is just starting to rise. There arent words to describe the beuty, its so beutifull that it almost brings me to tears. The light as if put there by an angel creeps into youre eyes and it feels like i can see my destiny. I could die and never regret a moment spent with you. Youre eyes speak volumes. I can see you, the most beutifull mother ive ever seen, the children come to you as it nears bedtime asking you to sing them a song. But did you ever stop to think that it is you, youre sweet voice that the children can find such peace such harmony that they beg for it to lull them to sleep and as youre doing so it melts my heart. will never love anyone the way i do you i adore you i want everything for you i would give up my ability to see and that meaning that i could never see youre sweet face so that you could have that which makes you happy. But with that i think and am reminded even more how much i love you becuase i know that you would never ask me to because there is nothing that makes you happier than to be with me and all you would ever want would be me cait i know that you love me and i just want to pound it in youre heart that i will always love you know and forever and when you get the money for that ring i will finally have a way to prove to all the true testimony of our love .
Cait i love you so much and i dont know what i would do without you just be patient im coming slowly but surely
for all to know I LOVE CAITLIN FOBERT
always BEN CHISHOLM
PS HOW DOES THIS SOUND ( Ben and Caitlin Chisholm)