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I know I should update this thing more, but I keep forgetting or not having time. And right now I don't even know where to begin. Something happened with one of my friends yesterday that just totally screwed over the rest of my semester. I'm really really hurt, and I'm really angry, but when I seriously think about it, I'm not angry at him. Not in a "you broke my heart and now I want to rip your face off" kind of way. If anything, it's a "this was the one conversation I never, EVER wanted to have with you, and you still forced this on me" angry. I didn't want this to come up, because I didn't want to be that vulnerable to him, and I was happiest when I didn't know for sure what he would have said. And now it's pretty evident that my worst fears concerning this whole situation were always legit.
Fuck, this sucks.
Fuck, this sucks.