and he's done...
Okay, so I'm totally done at this point. Things have been going pretty well lately but just today, just this afternoon/evening really. I realized that it's just not going to work. I spend too much time with him and am way to available to him. I'm done with that.
I think I was naive before. I honestly thought that maybe there was a chance...a chance that things would progress differently. I think that he likes me. But I think that he loves his girlfriend. He just told me tonight in a round about way that he'd never cheat on his girlfriend. While I think that's wonderful, no guy should ever cheat on their girlfriend. I definitely feel that he has flirted with me A LOT! Everyday..all day long this guy is blowing up my computer with IM's. Not just hey how you doing IM's...but IM's that involve a lot of things that I would NEVER say if I had a girlfriend. I just am starting to realize it's bullshit. I am being really stupid and naive to think...oh maybe they'll break up. I highly doubt that is going to happen. And I found myself annoyed with him all evening...so...I need to move on.
what does that mean? that means that I am far LESS available to him. if he wants to chat every once in awhile, fine. But I will not be even close to as available as I was before. we won't be hanging out all weekend long. we won't be eating together everyday. those things are not going to happen anymore. done. finish. if i continue to do that then my head won't let me remember that things aren't going to work out with him. we will never be more than just friends. period.
so that's what i need to remind myself of right now.
I think I was naive before. I honestly thought that maybe there was a chance...a chance that things would progress differently. I think that he likes me. But I think that he loves his girlfriend. He just told me tonight in a round about way that he'd never cheat on his girlfriend. While I think that's wonderful, no guy should ever cheat on their girlfriend. I definitely feel that he has flirted with me A LOT! Everyday..all day long this guy is blowing up my computer with IM's. Not just hey how you doing IM's...but IM's that involve a lot of things that I would NEVER say if I had a girlfriend. I just am starting to realize it's bullshit. I am being really stupid and naive to think...oh maybe they'll break up. I highly doubt that is going to happen. And I found myself annoyed with him all evening...so...I need to move on.
what does that mean? that means that I am far LESS available to him. if he wants to chat every once in awhile, fine. But I will not be even close to as available as I was before. we won't be hanging out all weekend long. we won't be eating together everyday. those things are not going to happen anymore. done. finish. if i continue to do that then my head won't let me remember that things aren't going to work out with him. we will never be more than just friends. period.
so that's what i need to remind myself of right now.