poemness
This one's a little long guys. I usually try to keep them short. This is for Chris and I think I can at least on Chimu's behalf say it's for Jace too.
After the Anger
The secret was out and I shook with hate
Hate that poisoned my very soul
I held the knife in my two hands
But I wasn't sure who to use it on, me or him.
Innocence lost, left to die in the night,
What is to be done with it?
I pay my respects in memories,
Like flowers on my childhood's grave.
After the anger went away,
What was left of me, but this shell?
I turned my heart off and walked away.
Locked the door, always felt that void.
Still there was not love, nor joy, nor hope,
Only desperate attention to the cause,
I had survival on my mind,
Conquering that which had conquered me.
I didn't cry anymore,
Mostly I think I'd forgotten how,
Didn't get my heart broken,
Cause the damage was already done.
After the anger went away,
There was nothing left in me,
Not even a ray of sun,
To light the darkness in my soul.
After the anger went away,
My anchor for so long,
In a world that had gone insane,
I was adrift in the storm.
Void of emotion,
Not even pain to weigh me down,
I held the knife in my two hands,
Not sure who to use it on, me or him.
Then there was you,
A shining star on the darkest night,
My beautiful rainbow after so long a storm,
The ray of hope that warmed my soul,
The key that let me into my heart again.
I was empty and you filled me with love.
I was lost and you brought me back.
I stood on eternity's edge yearning to leap,
But you took my hand and finally led me away.
I knew only darkness and you brought me light.
I was all but dead inside and breathed into me life,
With a first gentle kiss, a real first kiss,
Giving to me that which had been taken, innocence.
Each day that passes, each tear that falls,
Is brushed away by loving hands.
Each hurt that rises, each pain that aches,
Is kissed away, like a healing salve.
After the anger went away,
You came along instead,
An angel on the darkest night,
And brought true love where none had been.
Maybe this is meant to be,
This love that flows between you and me,
But truely this I know for sure,
"Thank you" isn't enough,
when you've been given the world,
"I love you with all of my heart" though,
seems like a good place to start.
After the Anger
The secret was out and I shook with hate
Hate that poisoned my very soul
I held the knife in my two hands
But I wasn't sure who to use it on, me or him.
Innocence lost, left to die in the night,
What is to be done with it?
I pay my respects in memories,
Like flowers on my childhood's grave.
After the anger went away,
What was left of me, but this shell?
I turned my heart off and walked away.
Locked the door, always felt that void.
Still there was not love, nor joy, nor hope,
Only desperate attention to the cause,
I had survival on my mind,
Conquering that which had conquered me.
I didn't cry anymore,
Mostly I think I'd forgotten how,
Didn't get my heart broken,
Cause the damage was already done.
After the anger went away,
There was nothing left in me,
Not even a ray of sun,
To light the darkness in my soul.
After the anger went away,
My anchor for so long,
In a world that had gone insane,
I was adrift in the storm.
Void of emotion,
Not even pain to weigh me down,
I held the knife in my two hands,
Not sure who to use it on, me or him.
Then there was you,
A shining star on the darkest night,
My beautiful rainbow after so long a storm,
The ray of hope that warmed my soul,
The key that let me into my heart again.
I was empty and you filled me with love.
I was lost and you brought me back.
I stood on eternity's edge yearning to leap,
But you took my hand and finally led me away.
I knew only darkness and you brought me light.
I was all but dead inside and breathed into me life,
With a first gentle kiss, a real first kiss,
Giving to me that which had been taken, innocence.
Each day that passes, each tear that falls,
Is brushed away by loving hands.
Each hurt that rises, each pain that aches,
Is kissed away, like a healing salve.
After the anger went away,
You came along instead,
An angel on the darkest night,
And brought true love where none had been.
Maybe this is meant to be,
This love that flows between you and me,
But truely this I know for sure,
"Thank you" isn't enough,
when you've been given the world,
"I love you with all of my heart" though,
seems like a good place to start.