A rant...
I seriously feel like everyone wants me to be someone Im not. I am constantly getting critisized for EVERYTHING in my life. Let's see: Recently I have been trying extra hard to find a new job, but hello I live in michigan. Do you even realize how bad the economy is? What I really want to do is work part time and go back to school to get my bachelors. My sister wasted so much money going away to college only to fuck up and not even get a degree of any kinda after 4 years. I went to community college and got my associates degree and got A's and B's. Now dad wont pay for college for me anymore but he is sending my sister back to school. I seriously feel like thats bullshit. Everyone always had such high hope for my sister but not for me...
So anyways, I do start a new job on Tuesday and I will earn money so I can send myself back to school. So then i have been talking to my ex again and not in like one of those weird ways either. All I seriously want is to forget everything that happened over the last 4 years with him that makes me sooooo mad and get past it. I dont even know how things are gonna end up this time with him but for right now being friends is just oerfect with me. Im just sick of fighting with him. And if he does stay in my life then fighting about the past is out of the question. And I wish Jenna would shut the fuck up about me hanging out with him. Yeah me and him have a fucked up past. But what makes one of my friends think that they would know better than I would? After all it is my life and I can live it for myself and do what I want. Dont people realize that the more you critisize them about things they do and therefore try to tell them what they should do like your living life for them... they are gonna get pissed off at you and pull away? I mean shes a hypocrite anyways because she wants to get back together with her cheating ex too.
So I guess now im just ranting... and i dont mean it in a "boo hoo look at me" kind of way... i just wanted to get it off my chest. So goodnight.
So anyways, I do start a new job on Tuesday and I will earn money so I can send myself back to school. So then i have been talking to my ex again and not in like one of those weird ways either. All I seriously want is to forget everything that happened over the last 4 years with him that makes me sooooo mad and get past it. I dont even know how things are gonna end up this time with him but for right now being friends is just oerfect with me. Im just sick of fighting with him. And if he does stay in my life then fighting about the past is out of the question. And I wish Jenna would shut the fuck up about me hanging out with him. Yeah me and him have a fucked up past. But what makes one of my friends think that they would know better than I would? After all it is my life and I can live it for myself and do what I want. Dont people realize that the more you critisize them about things they do and therefore try to tell them what they should do like your living life for them... they are gonna get pissed off at you and pull away? I mean shes a hypocrite anyways because she wants to get back together with her cheating ex too.
So I guess now im just ranting... and i dont mean it in a "boo hoo look at me" kind of way... i just wanted to get it off my chest. So goodnight.