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so I got home last night to not so good news.
Mum got the results of her CT scan back on Friday, she has excess fluid on the brain that is causing her memory loss. She is supposed to go back for an MRI in the next week or so. And supposedly there is a procedure where they will have to put a shunt in her skull to drain the excess fluid to her stomach. When she told me this I almost broke down in front of her, but instead I went to bed.
I did, however, take half the day off to come home and have a kind of breakdown, I guess you would call it, this afternoon. Then I ended up passing out for a while and got up to do some stuff around the house.
I'm really scared about this procedure, and I feel that I'm going to have to be strong through this. Has anyone else had this happen to someone they know or to themselves??? I need to hear something positive.
Why can't I have a so called NORMAL breakdown like anyone else. I SWEAR. I feel like this year has not been good so far and I'm about to fucking snap at any moment. Plus I hate having to come back home from a fantastic weekend to find out about this. It's not the first time it's happened before. Almost like I'm being punished in a way.
I'm kinda sad about it right now and all. I need to find myself something to do. I think I'm going to spin for a while, and then yoga to relax myself and meditate.
Mum got the results of her CT scan back on Friday, she has excess fluid on the brain that is causing her memory loss. She is supposed to go back for an MRI in the next week or so. And supposedly there is a procedure where they will have to put a shunt in her skull to drain the excess fluid to her stomach. When she told me this I almost broke down in front of her, but instead I went to bed.
I did, however, take half the day off to come home and have a kind of breakdown, I guess you would call it, this afternoon. Then I ended up passing out for a while and got up to do some stuff around the house.
I'm really scared about this procedure, and I feel that I'm going to have to be strong through this. Has anyone else had this happen to someone they know or to themselves??? I need to hear something positive.
Why can't I have a so called NORMAL breakdown like anyone else. I SWEAR. I feel like this year has not been good so far and I'm about to fucking snap at any moment. Plus I hate having to come back home from a fantastic weekend to find out about this. It's not the first time it's happened before. Almost like I'm being punished in a way.
I'm kinda sad about it right now and all. I need to find myself something to do. I think I'm going to spin for a while, and then yoga to relax myself and meditate.