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Sometimes life as a whole just plain confuses me
maybe there really is absolutely no purpos at all
but that doesn't mean its like pointless...like if all I have is this one life I might as well make the most of it right?
I'm slightly worried I might have like....failed the ib spanish test....I probably didn't..but I'm not completely sure that I passed either...I've convinced myself that I'm okay with getting like a 2..cuz that won't prevent me from getting my ib diploma..but I still just don't like being stupid at stuff...although in general I just suck at foreign languages and i never really learned spanish at all cuz i kept getting sucky teachers/circumstances...I want to learn other languages eventually I should immerse myself in them...or take it in collge..but for now i"m just....done..whatever even if i did bad there's nothing more i can do about it
some of my "friends" aren't really acting like friends..but I guess that's typical...idk what to do when I honestly don't feel like I really did anything wrong, but also feel like a situation is stupid, and my initial attempts to talk things out failed...I'm afraid i'm just goign to react badly or let things fall apart and they'll never be fixed or idk...whateverrrr I'll deal with that
other school stuff sucks but its managable..I think spanish was the thing I was most worried about and now at least its over so I can't stress abot it cuz I can't do anything more..and if it prevents me from getting my ib diploma then screw it all I can just give up on this life and do somethin else with myself...that wouldn't really be all that bad
I'm rambling a lot..>I like having fun but I regret when i'm not productive
I have the ap gov test tomrorow..I'm not ready again, before I was ready, now I forgot it all..I partially don't care..but partially do
I'm kidna crazy
my grandpa's in town
school sucks
some ppl annoy me
everythings confusing
idk my mind is an odd place right now
I should go study I guess...or do some other work or something
whateverrrrr
maybe there really is absolutely no purpos at all
but that doesn't mean its like pointless...like if all I have is this one life I might as well make the most of it right?
I'm slightly worried I might have like....failed the ib spanish test....I probably didn't..but I'm not completely sure that I passed either...I've convinced myself that I'm okay with getting like a 2..cuz that won't prevent me from getting my ib diploma..but I still just don't like being stupid at stuff...although in general I just suck at foreign languages and i never really learned spanish at all cuz i kept getting sucky teachers/circumstances...I want to learn other languages eventually I should immerse myself in them...or take it in collge..but for now i"m just....done..whatever even if i did bad there's nothing more i can do about it
some of my "friends" aren't really acting like friends..but I guess that's typical...idk what to do when I honestly don't feel like I really did anything wrong, but also feel like a situation is stupid, and my initial attempts to talk things out failed...I'm afraid i'm just goign to react badly or let things fall apart and they'll never be fixed or idk...whateverrrr I'll deal with that
other school stuff sucks but its managable..I think spanish was the thing I was most worried about and now at least its over so I can't stress abot it cuz I can't do anything more..and if it prevents me from getting my ib diploma then screw it all I can just give up on this life and do somethin else with myself...that wouldn't really be all that bad
I'm rambling a lot..>I like having fun but I regret when i'm not productive
I have the ap gov test tomrorow..I'm not ready again, before I was ready, now I forgot it all..I partially don't care..but partially do
I'm kidna crazy
my grandpa's in town
school sucks
some ppl annoy me
everythings confusing
idk my mind is an odd place right now
I should go study I guess...or do some other work or something
whateverrrrr