I'm tired of crying...

[princesskim18]

So things with Matt and I aren't really back to normal, and I don't really think they will be anytime soon. It just feels like he's avoiding me. I mean we hung out yesterday and he was talking to me and cuddling with me and stuff, but other than when we're actually together he doesn't talk to me at all. I guess my problem is that I like him, and he doesn't feel that way about me at all. It hurts. I want him to like me, and instead he's hanging out with a bunch of other chicks while he's hanging out with me, and of course I'm getting all jealous because I like him. Seriously this whole situation sucks ass! I can't stop crying over it. I'm good when I don't think about it, but when I do, I get all hysterical and shit. I guess what I have to do is just stop seeing him, but the problem with that is the thought of not seeing him makes me cry just as much as the thought of him not liking me. I just wish I had never met him. Then I wouldn't be going through all this shit. I hate myself for getting attached and I hate him for not liking me.
I guess that's it for now...I'm tired of talking about and even more tired of crying over it. So I'm going to go pretend it never happened.