BOYS!!!!! and GIRLS!!!!!
Hmmm...I sound slightly pissed off in that last entry don't I? I'd explain to everyone why I was pissed, but I'm just not in the mood to relive it, so I'm going to sit here and not think about it (completely).
So last night steph and I hung out with the boys. It was fun...for awhile. We were all sitting around watching some concert video (Rammestien or something weird like that) when I turned to Matt and was like "Can I lick you?" (I was just joking around no one think I'm a weirdo) He looks at me all horrified and goes "uhhhh, thanks..." I'm like what? I asked you if I could lick you. he goes oh, sure! It turns out he thought I said "I like you". He was totally freaked out when he thought I said that. That's just the best feeling in the world...when a guy you kinda have feelings for freaks out when he thinks you said that you like him. I guess I can pretty much count out anything happening between us in the future huh? Which kinda sucks, cause I do like him. I really need to talk to him about this whole thing, cause I can't keep hanging out with him and flirting and stuff, and having him flirting and being all touchy feely, and then have him freak when he thinks I said that I like him. I guess I just need to know where I stand with him. Like what does he want from me? I know that he doesn't want a relationship, and even if he did I'm pretty sure I'm not the kind of girl that he would date anyway....so I guess my problem is I feel like I'm being kept around for entertainment purposes. I suppose that's not a bad thing, I mean that's what I was doing with him in the first place. I would latch on to him because he would be there with me when steph and Ivory hung out. So he was like someone to play with in a sense, unfortunately being the girly girl I am, I got attached, and now I have feelings for him. Feelings that I'm pretty sure he could NEVER have for me. So, I'm feeling slightly crushed at the moment and wishing that I never would have started hanging out with him because this is starting to hurt really bad. I guess this whole thing depends on what he says when I talk to him. Wish me luck, I guess. And I shall keep you posted (whether you like it or not).
~muah~
So last night steph and I hung out with the boys. It was fun...for awhile. We were all sitting around watching some concert video (Rammestien or something weird like that) when I turned to Matt and was like "Can I lick you?" (I was just joking around no one think I'm a weirdo) He looks at me all horrified and goes "uhhhh, thanks..." I'm like what? I asked you if I could lick you. he goes oh, sure! It turns out he thought I said "I like you". He was totally freaked out when he thought I said that. That's just the best feeling in the world...when a guy you kinda have feelings for freaks out when he thinks you said that you like him. I guess I can pretty much count out anything happening between us in the future huh? Which kinda sucks, cause I do like him. I really need to talk to him about this whole thing, cause I can't keep hanging out with him and flirting and stuff, and having him flirting and being all touchy feely, and then have him freak when he thinks I said that I like him. I guess I just need to know where I stand with him. Like what does he want from me? I know that he doesn't want a relationship, and even if he did I'm pretty sure I'm not the kind of girl that he would date anyway....so I guess my problem is I feel like I'm being kept around for entertainment purposes. I suppose that's not a bad thing, I mean that's what I was doing with him in the first place. I would latch on to him because he would be there with me when steph and Ivory hung out. So he was like someone to play with in a sense, unfortunately being the girly girl I am, I got attached, and now I have feelings for him. Feelings that I'm pretty sure he could NEVER have for me. So, I'm feeling slightly crushed at the moment and wishing that I never would have started hanging out with him because this is starting to hurt really bad. I guess this whole thing depends on what he says when I talk to him. Wish me luck, I guess. And I shall keep you posted (whether you like it or not).
~muah~