lack of anything
so, due to a lack of anything to do tonight, as the ticket i almost had (and should have had as it was bought for me)for the marilyn manson concert was given away to a stupid moron boy who lost his ticket, i guess i should up date as i havent for a while.
lets see...still broken up with michael....not really sure how i feel at this point. it hurts, but it hurts just as much when i am with him as it does when we're apart. so yeah. it sucks....from what i gather it always sucks.
we've moved from the old appt into a really nice new one. the neighbors so far are really nice. it's in a much better neighborhood, and it's a smaller community, so there shouldnt be as many problems as the old one.
i got a kitten....still trying to decide on a good proper name for her...as of now she's called cry-baby which has been shorted to baby...or she's called little one...we have a few other names for her, but most of those go with the mood she's in (or the mood we're in). but right now she's the light of my life....well...so it my friend Joe...but that's just because he's been so wonderful lately.
i'll update on him in a few paragraphs...i'm trying to go in chronological order but it's not working too well.
but as to my kitten....it's rather difficult to name her as there are a few good names for her. one is Sagira..which means little one in egyptian...another is Zaira which is irish for sara meaning princess...and the third is Ayasha...which is cheyenne for little one. But i'm just not sure which one i like the best...nor do i know if i like any of them enough for Baby.
but as to the whole new relationship thing....not much happening...though i have some small hopes for (or possibilities) with a few guys, i would name them, but that would serve no purpose as most of the people who read this dont know them, or i dont want them to know about the who part yet. but there are possibilities...there was a probability...but that fell through due to my own insecurities...luckily the guy felt that i was too good a friend to be really upset...plus he understood that i had just got out of a realationship where i believed that it was going to become a marriage...but then again, i am a hopeless romantic and naiive.
anyways...today was ok....not really...first, it was spent moving some more...i'm getting annoyed with moving at this point...then i went to moms to run a few errands for her as she just had eye surgury..while i was there i picked up my mail..only to find that a check a friend wrote me for 220$ was returned because she had insuficiant funds...which royally screwed me over now...hopefully between mom and a rebate and some REALLY good tips i should be able to make a few things work until my next paycheck....hopefully. well...after that, at the store, a can of soup fell on my foot....and it was from a shelf that i hadnt even touched!! it hurt!! then the whole thing with the manson concert fell through...and i was kinda looking forward to going..even if it wasnt really my thing, i would have been able to spend time with andrew, and it would have been an interesting experience....so i was kinda upset but so far the night has gotten better...angie and kelly brought me home a burger from roberts (really big and REALLY good) and now we're all just sitting in my new room (which i share with angie) and making fun of angie. so yeah...getting better...of course it's techinically a new day now so that could be it.
so on to the whole Joe thing...(as Joe is probably reading this and wondering when i am going to talk about him like i said i would.) of course i dont really know what to say...he's been so wonderful lately...it's been nice to know that at least one person really cares about me...he's also my longest friend...even before i knew lorand...and even though i treated him shitty for about 2 years, he still is my friend...even though i wonder why. yes i know that i treated him shitty because at the same time i was treating myself shitty...but what depressed 15 year old isnt treating themselves shitty?
anyways...so yeah....he' been wonderful. plain and simple...he's going to come and see me in 2 weeks...for a whole day!!!...i'll need that. i need to spend time with someone who really loves me for a bit.
anyways, i should get to bed now....plus i think that angie and kelly want to get on the computer or something.
lets see...still broken up with michael....not really sure how i feel at this point. it hurts, but it hurts just as much when i am with him as it does when we're apart. so yeah. it sucks....from what i gather it always sucks.
we've moved from the old appt into a really nice new one. the neighbors so far are really nice. it's in a much better neighborhood, and it's a smaller community, so there shouldnt be as many problems as the old one.
i got a kitten....still trying to decide on a good proper name for her...as of now she's called cry-baby which has been shorted to baby...or she's called little one...we have a few other names for her, but most of those go with the mood she's in (or the mood we're in). but right now she's the light of my life....well...so it my friend Joe...but that's just because he's been so wonderful lately.
i'll update on him in a few paragraphs...i'm trying to go in chronological order but it's not working too well.
but as to my kitten....it's rather difficult to name her as there are a few good names for her. one is Sagira..which means little one in egyptian...another is Zaira which is irish for sara meaning princess...and the third is Ayasha...which is cheyenne for little one. But i'm just not sure which one i like the best...nor do i know if i like any of them enough for Baby.
but as to the whole new relationship thing....not much happening...though i have some small hopes for (or possibilities) with a few guys, i would name them, but that would serve no purpose as most of the people who read this dont know them, or i dont want them to know about the who part yet. but there are possibilities...there was a probability...but that fell through due to my own insecurities...luckily the guy felt that i was too good a friend to be really upset...plus he understood that i had just got out of a realationship where i believed that it was going to become a marriage...but then again, i am a hopeless romantic and naiive.
anyways...today was ok....not really...first, it was spent moving some more...i'm getting annoyed with moving at this point...then i went to moms to run a few errands for her as she just had eye surgury..while i was there i picked up my mail..only to find that a check a friend wrote me for 220$ was returned because she had insuficiant funds...which royally screwed me over now...hopefully between mom and a rebate and some REALLY good tips i should be able to make a few things work until my next paycheck....hopefully. well...after that, at the store, a can of soup fell on my foot....and it was from a shelf that i hadnt even touched!! it hurt!! then the whole thing with the manson concert fell through...and i was kinda looking forward to going..even if it wasnt really my thing, i would have been able to spend time with andrew, and it would have been an interesting experience....so i was kinda upset but so far the night has gotten better...angie and kelly brought me home a burger from roberts (really big and REALLY good) and now we're all just sitting in my new room (which i share with angie) and making fun of angie. so yeah...getting better...of course it's techinically a new day now so that could be it.
so on to the whole Joe thing...(as Joe is probably reading this and wondering when i am going to talk about him like i said i would.) of course i dont really know what to say...he's been so wonderful lately...it's been nice to know that at least one person really cares about me...he's also my longest friend...even before i knew lorand...and even though i treated him shitty for about 2 years, he still is my friend...even though i wonder why. yes i know that i treated him shitty because at the same time i was treating myself shitty...but what depressed 15 year old isnt treating themselves shitty?
anyways...so yeah....he' been wonderful. plain and simple...he's going to come and see me in 2 weeks...for a whole day!!!...i'll need that. i need to spend time with someone who really loves me for a bit.
anyways, i should get to bed now....plus i think that angie and kelly want to get on the computer or something.