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I have become the ultimate relationship pessimist. Not that I think that this should come as a surprise after what "following my heart" has done for me in the past few years. To date, of the 5 people who my heart has told me were a good match, I have actually dated 2 of them.. for a total of about 1 month at 1 week of happiness... and a broken heart 5 times. This is not good results for following my heart... my heart leads 1 way -- disaster. I don't like that I've gotten to be this way.. that I've been sitting here for 4 days trying to figure out what my heart is saying and I'm getting no answer... all I've been able to get is logic... and logic isn't a very romantic way to view a relationship... nor in most cases will it keep a relationship which is having problems afloat... I feel like my heart is on strike or something... which I would entirely understand had I never listened to it before.. but I HAVE... I have followed it to some of the dumbest places on earth includeing men with girlfriends, those who were moving, and those who lived in Kentucky... maybe it realized I'm upset with it's results in the past. Which I must say that I am a bit.. maybe it decided to sit this one out so I can see just how lost I am without it. NOT FAIR.
Dear Heart-
I am deeply sorry that I have been critical of your past guidance. Maybe all of those unobtainable fellows were not REALLY the right ones... maybe you were just showing me something similar to what I will be getting in my future (you know, like the floor model of a new car.. it's CLOSE to what you're getting, but a few features might be different like the color, or the stereo) Please come back... if I have ever needed guidance or strength from you heart, it is now. I haven't a clue what to do and using logic makes me wonder why I got into all of this in the first place, so my only possible explination is you... and I want to know why on earth we are at this point and what you intend we should be doing with this perdicament.
Thank you.
Love-
Ashley
Does writing a letter to myself make me crazy?
Dear Heart-
I am deeply sorry that I have been critical of your past guidance. Maybe all of those unobtainable fellows were not REALLY the right ones... maybe you were just showing me something similar to what I will be getting in my future (you know, like the floor model of a new car.. it's CLOSE to what you're getting, but a few features might be different like the color, or the stereo) Please come back... if I have ever needed guidance or strength from you heart, it is now. I haven't a clue what to do and using logic makes me wonder why I got into all of this in the first place, so my only possible explination is you... and I want to know why on earth we are at this point and what you intend we should be doing with this perdicament.
Thank you.
Love-
Ashley
Does writing a letter to myself make me crazy?