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Why do I always fuck everything up?! Why the fuck am I so fucking horrible!!??!!
I'm pretty sure Matt hates me.
I'm almost completely sure Matt hates me.
I'm almost positive Matt hates me.
I am positive Matt hates me.
Matt hates me.
It's all my fucking fault too. If I hadn't been my stupid fucking whorish self everything would be fine.
If I weren't such a fucking slut me and him would still be great.
If I weren't so fucking horrible everything would be wonderful.
But no, I'm a horrible whorish slut who always has to fuck up everything good in her life, everything that makes her happy.
Everything was fine, until I fucked it all up. -sigh-
OK time for the story behind all of this:
Matt, Melissa, Brian, Dickie, and I all went to the Adventure Dome today. We were all having a great time, until me and Melissa get lost. Matt and them had walked away from us by accident...Well we get back to the dome and we notice these two boys following us. They keep giving us the "come hither look" so we giggle and look at them then giggle again, we do this every time we see them after that. Well, Matt notices, but doesn't ask. He ignores it, and goes on with his day. But then...Melissa saw them following us, but they make a right instead of a left and go on the water ride instead of the roller coaster...we were headed to the roller coaster with all the guys...but Melissa asked me if I would rather go on the water ride...of course this is the part where I fuck up. I said yes, and we told Matt, then left...We get there and stand in the line next to the boys...they don't even make an attempt to talk to us...we're giggling, and looking at them, then Matt walks up. He ditched his friends to come ride with us...-sigh- he notices us laughing, and asks what is so funny...and of course, Melissa explains we followed the guys that have been following us...he just looks at me for a second...then looks away...and leaves. I tried to stop him! I really did! but...he pushed me off...-sigh- I ruin everything. So yeah, we go on the ride, he's waiting for Melissa at the exit...not for me...-sigh- Melissa and Brian decide to go on the roller coaster...but me dickie and Matt...decide to stay...he tries to get me to go...he tells me straight out to go...but I stay, and I try to stand next to him...but he tells me to fuck off...
I RUIN EVERYTHING!
My god I'm pathetic...this is the first time I've cried in a while...I hate this. I hate me. I am the worst thing to ever happen to me. -crying- I was falling for him...and I still am...my god why does this hurt so bad?
I'm pretty sure Matt hates me.
I'm almost completely sure Matt hates me.
I'm almost positive Matt hates me.
I am positive Matt hates me.
Matt hates me.
It's all my fucking fault too. If I hadn't been my stupid fucking whorish self everything would be fine.
If I weren't such a fucking slut me and him would still be great.
If I weren't so fucking horrible everything would be wonderful.
But no, I'm a horrible whorish slut who always has to fuck up everything good in her life, everything that makes her happy.
Everything was fine, until I fucked it all up. -sigh-
OK time for the story behind all of this:
Matt, Melissa, Brian, Dickie, and I all went to the Adventure Dome today. We were all having a great time, until me and Melissa get lost. Matt and them had walked away from us by accident...Well we get back to the dome and we notice these two boys following us. They keep giving us the "come hither look" so we giggle and look at them then giggle again, we do this every time we see them after that. Well, Matt notices, but doesn't ask. He ignores it, and goes on with his day. But then...Melissa saw them following us, but they make a right instead of a left and go on the water ride instead of the roller coaster...we were headed to the roller coaster with all the guys...but Melissa asked me if I would rather go on the water ride...of course this is the part where I fuck up. I said yes, and we told Matt, then left...We get there and stand in the line next to the boys...they don't even make an attempt to talk to us...we're giggling, and looking at them, then Matt walks up. He ditched his friends to come ride with us...-sigh- he notices us laughing, and asks what is so funny...and of course, Melissa explains we followed the guys that have been following us...he just looks at me for a second...then looks away...and leaves. I tried to stop him! I really did! but...he pushed me off...-sigh- I ruin everything. So yeah, we go on the ride, he's waiting for Melissa at the exit...not for me...-sigh- Melissa and Brian decide to go on the roller coaster...but me dickie and Matt...decide to stay...he tries to get me to go...he tells me straight out to go...but I stay, and I try to stand next to him...but he tells me to fuck off...
I RUIN EVERYTHING!
My god I'm pathetic...this is the first time I've cried in a while...I hate this. I hate me. I am the worst thing to ever happen to me. -crying- I was falling for him...and I still am...my god why does this hurt so bad?