Something from the Soul.....
Today brought a lot of thinking...
I've been thinking about my past, my future and where I'm at right now. These past few months have brought so much change within me. I really feel like I'm growing up. I've realized that I've made mistakes, but that's how I learn who I am. Those mistakes make me, me. I've also achieved many things in my short 17 years. Those achievments help shape who I am today.
Today I got something in the mail from the Air Force. The card just said "whatamigoingtodonext.com". It really made me think. What am I goin to do next? I'm a Junior in high school. I have one more year until I'm going out into what people call "the real world". Am I ready for that? Yes, I have dreams of what I want to become and who I want to be. But will that happen?
I want to go to a great college and become a teacher. I want to be married to a man that loves everything about me and treats me like a princess. I want to be married and still feel like I'm about to explode with love after 50 years. I want to have children. I want to raise beautiful and intelligent children. I want to be successful in life. I sometimes feel that I lack the motivation I need to achieve these things.....
But then I look at my past and look at how far I've come. I've made too many mistakes to type tonight, but I've made far less achievements. I've stood up for myself against bullies and made it through just fine. And now we're best friends.. :) .. I've fallen in love and I have made it through my first broken heart, and I'm ready to love again. I've made decisions against my friends and families advice. I ended up hurt and embarrassed..but I'm fine now.
I have a long life ahead of me. I will have more failures than I will ever need but I will also have more achievements. Sometimes I get down and don't think I'm worth much. I feel cheated, ugly, and bitter. But then I see something that reminds me of the good in life. Maybe it's an old couple holding hands, forever in love or maybe it's that picture of the "camel-face"..haha..(Laura Beth)..or maybe a simple little daisy,they're my favorite.....
I've been thinking about my past, my future and where I'm at right now. These past few months have brought so much change within me. I really feel like I'm growing up. I've realized that I've made mistakes, but that's how I learn who I am. Those mistakes make me, me. I've also achieved many things in my short 17 years. Those achievments help shape who I am today.
Today I got something in the mail from the Air Force. The card just said "whatamigoingtodonext.com". It really made me think. What am I goin to do next? I'm a Junior in high school. I have one more year until I'm going out into what people call "the real world". Am I ready for that? Yes, I have dreams of what I want to become and who I want to be. But will that happen?
I want to go to a great college and become a teacher. I want to be married to a man that loves everything about me and treats me like a princess. I want to be married and still feel like I'm about to explode with love after 50 years. I want to have children. I want to raise beautiful and intelligent children. I want to be successful in life. I sometimes feel that I lack the motivation I need to achieve these things.....
But then I look at my past and look at how far I've come. I've made too many mistakes to type tonight, but I've made far less achievements. I've stood up for myself against bullies and made it through just fine. And now we're best friends.. :) .. I've fallen in love and I have made it through my first broken heart, and I'm ready to love again. I've made decisions against my friends and families advice. I ended up hurt and embarrassed..but I'm fine now.
I have a long life ahead of me. I will have more failures than I will ever need but I will also have more achievements. Sometimes I get down and don't think I'm worth much. I feel cheated, ugly, and bitter. But then I see something that reminds me of the good in life. Maybe it's an old couple holding hands, forever in love or maybe it's that picture of the "camel-face"..haha..(Laura Beth)..or maybe a simple little daisy,they're my favorite.....