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So ive been thinking about alot of things latly, things are fucked up. I wrote kyli a letter....it seems my heart is to weak. I cant stop from forgiving.
Ive been thinking about cayla alot latly, everything is much different now that she is gone. I would be sitting here thinking things are so messed up. Id be sharing an apartment with her, going to college...living it up.
Ive been feeling like shit, i dont know if its cuz im depressed or what the hell is going on. I wake up with my jaw hurting...i catch my self grinding my teeth. When i wake up my back hurts so bad i cant breath, then my tummy hurts....my knee feels weak. My hands can no longer handle heave objects....i have a constant head ache...this all makes me wonder if this is all worth waking up for.
Ive been using people...(men) i just dont want to be alone...even though i dont want them more then a friend. Except this one guy....he is freakn beautiful...and when i feel his energy i feel happy. Anyways i like him..and he is the only guy i hang out with i havent slept with....amazing! no im not proud...but i dont know what to do anymore!
AHHAHAHAHAAA
Ive been thinking about cayla alot latly, everything is much different now that she is gone. I would be sitting here thinking things are so messed up. Id be sharing an apartment with her, going to college...living it up.
Ive been feeling like shit, i dont know if its cuz im depressed or what the hell is going on. I wake up with my jaw hurting...i catch my self grinding my teeth. When i wake up my back hurts so bad i cant breath, then my tummy hurts....my knee feels weak. My hands can no longer handle heave objects....i have a constant head ache...this all makes me wonder if this is all worth waking up for.
Ive been using people...(men) i just dont want to be alone...even though i dont want them more then a friend. Except this one guy....he is freakn beautiful...and when i feel his energy i feel happy. Anyways i like him..and he is the only guy i hang out with i havent slept with....amazing! no im not proud...but i dont know what to do anymore!
AHHAHAHAHAAA