Is this what the whole 'growing up' thing is all about?
"Know what's weird? Day by day, nothing seems to change, but pretty soon...everything's different."
-Calvin and Hobbes
This has been the . I have been busy and working and hanging out. I have spent time with old friends and made new ones. It feels like it has gone by in the blink of an eye. Somethings I am happy about, other things not so much. But the most interesting part has been the balanced tension between so many of the same things and so many different ones. The above quotation sums it up best because it feels very much like every day is the same. Work, drink a beer, sleep. And then get up tomorrow and do the same thing all over again. Yet, when I look back at a time as recently as a few months ago, so many things seem so different.
It has been a summer with a lot of milestones. My dad turned 60. My grandfather turned 95. My parents had their 33rd wedding anniversary. There have been a few girls here and there that I hung out with, but doesn't seem to have resulted in anything really special. I guess that it is just another episode in the long adventure that is life. I feel like I have learned a lot from other people and grown as a person.
But that can be a scary realization as well. I don't know who said it, but it rings true that the more I learn, the more I realize that I have left to learn. About other people and about myself. About life and love. About everything pretty much. I suppose I would hope to say that I've got a better feel on everything, but I don't know if that is necessarily true. There are a lot of things that I think I was much more comfortable with the less I knew about them. I know that that is very vague. But sometimes I feel like the more experience I have with people, the less confidence I have in people as a whole. I guess that is why I have always been the type of person who would much rather surround myself with a smaller number of close, positive friends than a larger number of people who I am not as close to.
This is especially evident to me when I look at my instant messenger buddy list. I have more than 200 people on it but I probably only talk to about a dozen of those people on a regular basis. And of those probably 5 of them are my close friends that I talk to all the time.
It is kind of a strange feeling. I feel like I know a lot of people and I can walk into any room and make friends with pretty much anyone, but that there aren't a lot of people who I talk to regularly or who really KNOW me. I don't want to come across as depressed and lonely or anything, because I'm not. But sometimes I wish that there were more people I was closer with. It is my fault more than anyone else's. I guess that is just how life progresses. Some people stay in your life and others pass in and out from time to time. I am especially thankful for the close friends that I have.
So I continue on day by day while those small changes compound into bigger ones.
-Calvin and Hobbes
This has been the . I have been busy and working and hanging out. I have spent time with old friends and made new ones. It feels like it has gone by in the blink of an eye. Somethings I am happy about, other things not so much. But the most interesting part has been the balanced tension between so many of the same things and so many different ones. The above quotation sums it up best because it feels very much like every day is the same. Work, drink a beer, sleep. And then get up tomorrow and do the same thing all over again. Yet, when I look back at a time as recently as a few months ago, so many things seem so different.
It has been a summer with a lot of milestones. My dad turned 60. My grandfather turned 95. My parents had their 33rd wedding anniversary. There have been a few girls here and there that I hung out with, but doesn't seem to have resulted in anything really special. I guess that it is just another episode in the long adventure that is life. I feel like I have learned a lot from other people and grown as a person.
But that can be a scary realization as well. I don't know who said it, but it rings true that the more I learn, the more I realize that I have left to learn. About other people and about myself. About life and love. About everything pretty much. I suppose I would hope to say that I've got a better feel on everything, but I don't know if that is necessarily true. There are a lot of things that I think I was much more comfortable with the less I knew about them. I know that that is very vague. But sometimes I feel like the more experience I have with people, the less confidence I have in people as a whole. I guess that is why I have always been the type of person who would much rather surround myself with a smaller number of close, positive friends than a larger number of people who I am not as close to.
This is especially evident to me when I look at my instant messenger buddy list. I have more than 200 people on it but I probably only talk to about a dozen of those people on a regular basis. And of those probably 5 of them are my close friends that I talk to all the time.
It is kind of a strange feeling. I feel like I know a lot of people and I can walk into any room and make friends with pretty much anyone, but that there aren't a lot of people who I talk to regularly or who really KNOW me. I don't want to come across as depressed and lonely or anything, because I'm not. But sometimes I wish that there were more people I was closer with. It is my fault more than anyone else's. I guess that is just how life progresses. Some people stay in your life and others pass in and out from time to time. I am especially thankful for the close friends that I have.
So I continue on day by day while those small changes compound into bigger ones.