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cast list goes up tomorrow! i'm really nervous, because i really want beauty. i think chris is right, i'm getting too attached to a role that's not mine. the thing is with Beauty and the Beast, i have loved that movie since i was little. belle has always been my favorite princess. but i have no control over this. i dont know what jenny thought, or what stephanie thought. all i can go on is how i think i did. i think my monologue went really well, as did my improv, and my cold reading. i could feel the emotions running through my body, i almost brought myself to tears. but i just dont know. i dont know how everyone else's auditions went. jenny told chris that there were some audition that "blew her away." what if i wasn't one of them. what if i didn't perform well enough to enstill some sort of lasting memory in their heads. i talked to jenny today but i didn't inquire about it cuz i didn't want to seem pushy. i could tell she was tired, she told me she was up til 12 making out a schedule for the entire show. (which is something that will please my parents cuz then they ccan know my schedule ahead of time.) i'm really antsy right now, i just want tomorrow to come so i can see if i failed or not. i dont think i failed but i dont wanna fail myself. i really want this part, but it's not in my hands to judge on talent. i think i did the best i could. i just dont know. we'll have to see. GAHHH!!!!!