I can give you change. Here, Hold out your hand
Stephanie, please stop drinking espresso near the end of your shift. Sleep is very necessary, and caffeine does not help. Really.
~ Stephanie
Taken from last night:
The disc is skipping in my mind now. It's stuck on a few thoughts. I can't stop thinking. I can't stop thinking.
"Lettt itt let ittt let ittt go go go go go"
The irony of it all is I feel like I take myself way too seriously, and no one else takes me seriously the least bit. That is my gift and curse. I'm probably one of the most laid back people you will ever meet. I don't have to be bothered by anything if I don't want to be. But I still feel and look into life and people more than I should sometimes. And for those two things put together, I know how unreliable I can be.
On a separate note, I had really strange deja vu tonight when I was working at Brews. This girl came in asking for quarters for a $1 bill, and she had already been in earlier asking for a smoothie. It was a really strong feeling that her coming in asking for change was so familiar, and I mentioned it, (because that's what you do when you experience deja vu), and she said, "oh, again?" and in my head I was like "what?! What do you mean again?" but I just chuckled because I didn't know her, and I didn't want to put much importance on a deja vu with a girl that I thought was rude in the first place when she ordered her smoothie, and I didn't particularly have any interest in. All the same, it was a strange sensation. Even the person who I served before she came in was like I had served them before, it was just a complete familiar picture. Fascinating that everyone seems to be fascinated with deja vu.
Natalie's coming back in 8 days from CO. I was actually adapting to talking to her every night on the phone, and us mentioning every night that we would be seeing each other soon. And now we really will be seeing each other soon, and I don't think we really know what to do with that. Sometimes she scares me because of her attention to planning everything. And then again, I'm drawn to the fact that she scares me. And also because I don't plan enough, for much at all.
I like working outside a lot. I like getting up early and making coffee and leaving to work and get paid to work, wearing dirty shorts or jeans and a t-shirt. I wish I could do it more. I like working in a coffee shop too, but the amount of useless conversation and mindless sayings that spill out of my mouth are so monotonous sometimes. And too routine. Routine makes me uncomfortable. I feel like it's what I'm always chasing after though. I know I need it, and I know I want it, but i'm so repulsed from things staying the same, that I've had little success keeping it in my life so far.
Overall, I feel like I need to use a telescope to look ahead sometimes, instead of always seeing everything through a kaleidoscope.
~ Stephanie
Taken from last night:
The disc is skipping in my mind now. It's stuck on a few thoughts. I can't stop thinking. I can't stop thinking.
"Lettt itt let ittt let ittt go go go go go"
The irony of it all is I feel like I take myself way too seriously, and no one else takes me seriously the least bit. That is my gift and curse. I'm probably one of the most laid back people you will ever meet. I don't have to be bothered by anything if I don't want to be. But I still feel and look into life and people more than I should sometimes. And for those two things put together, I know how unreliable I can be.
On a separate note, I had really strange deja vu tonight when I was working at Brews. This girl came in asking for quarters for a $1 bill, and she had already been in earlier asking for a smoothie. It was a really strong feeling that her coming in asking for change was so familiar, and I mentioned it, (because that's what you do when you experience deja vu), and she said, "oh, again?" and in my head I was like "what?! What do you mean again?" but I just chuckled because I didn't know her, and I didn't want to put much importance on a deja vu with a girl that I thought was rude in the first place when she ordered her smoothie, and I didn't particularly have any interest in. All the same, it was a strange sensation. Even the person who I served before she came in was like I had served them before, it was just a complete familiar picture. Fascinating that everyone seems to be fascinated with deja vu.
Natalie's coming back in 8 days from CO. I was actually adapting to talking to her every night on the phone, and us mentioning every night that we would be seeing each other soon. And now we really will be seeing each other soon, and I don't think we really know what to do with that. Sometimes she scares me because of her attention to planning everything. And then again, I'm drawn to the fact that she scares me. And also because I don't plan enough, for much at all.
I like working outside a lot. I like getting up early and making coffee and leaving to work and get paid to work, wearing dirty shorts or jeans and a t-shirt. I wish I could do it more. I like working in a coffee shop too, but the amount of useless conversation and mindless sayings that spill out of my mouth are so monotonous sometimes. And too routine. Routine makes me uncomfortable. I feel like it's what I'm always chasing after though. I know I need it, and I know I want it, but i'm so repulsed from things staying the same, that I've had little success keeping it in my life so far.
Overall, I feel like I need to use a telescope to look ahead sometimes, instead of always seeing everything through a kaleidoscope.