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so i hung out with brandon today. and it was nothing less than amazing. i really do love being with him and around him. i finally got to go to his house for the first time in....forever. it was nice. tomorrow me him caitlin and andy might go do something cause we havent in awhile.
other than that i kinda feel guilty. now i dont know if i should even be saying anything. because im sure that its one of those thing where...if you leave it alone it will work itself out. but i cant stop thinking about it. i dont think im being fair by doing what im doing. or for that matter what i did. i think that im worried that me and brandon are going to fall into the same routine that we were in. and that scares me because im not happy when we do the same thing everyday. i love brandon but i dont love routine. and if thats the kind of relationship that its going to be, then im not sure im ready for that. im not ready to give up either. i want to be able to work it all out. i just hope that i can be happy with him. because i dont want to start treating him like i did before because thats just not nice. and he doesnt deserve that.
ook. my birthday is in 5 days. =] (im happy.)
*katie *caitlin
*beca *meaghon
*allie *danielle
*brittany *alie
*nykki *chelsea
*brandon *benny
*glenny *tom
*andy *erik
*mark *nick
*john *ashley
*erica *nikki [blondi]
*kaydee *adam
other than that i kinda feel guilty. now i dont know if i should even be saying anything. because im sure that its one of those thing where...if you leave it alone it will work itself out. but i cant stop thinking about it. i dont think im being fair by doing what im doing. or for that matter what i did. i think that im worried that me and brandon are going to fall into the same routine that we were in. and that scares me because im not happy when we do the same thing everyday. i love brandon but i dont love routine. and if thats the kind of relationship that its going to be, then im not sure im ready for that. im not ready to give up either. i want to be able to work it all out. i just hope that i can be happy with him. because i dont want to start treating him like i did before because thats just not nice. and he doesnt deserve that.
ook. my birthday is in 5 days. =] (im happy.)
*katie *caitlin
*beca *meaghon
*allie *danielle
*brittany *alie
*nykki *chelsea
*brandon *benny
*glenny *tom
*andy *erik
*mark *nick
*john *ashley
*erica *nikki [blondi]
*kaydee *adam