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well this has been a fun day. well actually yesterday was a fun day. yea i'm stil buzzed. i only stoped drinking like 2 minutes ago lol... haha.... yea....
kate is a mom! we went up there at like 10. she had her baby lily at 11:17. she's so cute. i cant believe it. a baby. wow. lol. it's amazing. a baby. congrats!
umm then did pretty much nothing. watched the dogs for awhile. then we had a party. which is actually still going on. was suppose to be small. that didnt happen lol. the whole driveway was full. lol. it was fun though. been drinking since like 9. i'm tired. i'm going to sleep as soon as i'm done with this. i'm kinda pissed at a few people. but o well. i didnt except much else from them. but o well. n for some reason i still love her. n its driving me crazy. i love her so much. i really do. n u know who u are. funny thing is shes the only one who reads this anymore. but i love her. i'm buzzed n i just use this to get my thoughts out. but i love her. its crazy. i dont know y. well actually i know y i love her. there's a lot of reasons y. but i just love her. n i know its love. u cant tell me its not. bc i've seen love n felt love n i know this is. i'm thinking logically. i've been thinking lovgically. n i love her. errr. yet i know that it will never happen. i know that she will never love me back. n that she will never even give me a chance to show her how good of a bf i could be to her. i know all this n it hurts. n dont say i'm sorry or any of that bc it's all my feelings. u have no control over them. i dunno. i kinda know what i have to do. kinda do. i just have to figure out how to do it. n i have to do it soon. time is running out. i dont know y i said that. but i know that time is running out somehow. i've been feeling it. i dunno. the only thing i'm certain about is that i love her. n i dont even care if her bf knows. but o well. fate is fate. i'm going to sleep.....
what a day....
a baby! omg she had a baby! she's a mom! i cant believe it still. a mom. wow. a baby!
night
kate is a mom! we went up there at like 10. she had her baby lily at 11:17. she's so cute. i cant believe it. a baby. wow. lol. it's amazing. a baby. congrats!
umm then did pretty much nothing. watched the dogs for awhile. then we had a party. which is actually still going on. was suppose to be small. that didnt happen lol. the whole driveway was full. lol. it was fun though. been drinking since like 9. i'm tired. i'm going to sleep as soon as i'm done with this. i'm kinda pissed at a few people. but o well. i didnt except much else from them. but o well. n for some reason i still love her. n its driving me crazy. i love her so much. i really do. n u know who u are. funny thing is shes the only one who reads this anymore. but i love her. i'm buzzed n i just use this to get my thoughts out. but i love her. its crazy. i dont know y. well actually i know y i love her. there's a lot of reasons y. but i just love her. n i know its love. u cant tell me its not. bc i've seen love n felt love n i know this is. i'm thinking logically. i've been thinking lovgically. n i love her. errr. yet i know that it will never happen. i know that she will never love me back. n that she will never even give me a chance to show her how good of a bf i could be to her. i know all this n it hurts. n dont say i'm sorry or any of that bc it's all my feelings. u have no control over them. i dunno. i kinda know what i have to do. kinda do. i just have to figure out how to do it. n i have to do it soon. time is running out. i dont know y i said that. but i know that time is running out somehow. i've been feeling it. i dunno. the only thing i'm certain about is that i love her. n i dont even care if her bf knows. but o well. fate is fate. i'm going to sleep.....
what a day....
a baby! omg she had a baby! she's a mom! i cant believe it still. a mom. wow. a baby!
night