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y is this happening. y r these images coming into my head now. what the hell. y wont they stop. i cant control them n they're killing me. every time they appear all i want to do is cry n kill myself. just to stop the pain. they cause so much pain. why wont they stop. why are they happening. damnit stop.....
i have to change. i have to change everything. i have to. it's the only way. i cant keep going on like this. if i do i will end up just dieing. it's taking so much out of me. n no one even knows. no one will ever know or understand the pain. i hate this. i hate who i've became. i hate all of it. why. i have to change it.....
please someone just help me.....
i have to forget. i have to erase all that i know. erase all of the thoughts n feelings. it's the only way. damnit. i cant. i fucking cant. damnit.....
help.....
i have to change. i have to change everything. i have to. it's the only way. i cant keep going on like this. if i do i will end up just dieing. it's taking so much out of me. n no one even knows. no one will ever know or understand the pain. i hate this. i hate who i've became. i hate all of it. why. i have to change it.....
please someone just help me.....
i have to forget. i have to erase all that i know. erase all of the thoughts n feelings. it's the only way. damnit. i cant. i fucking cant. damnit.....
help.....