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i dont even know what to say. not at all. i'm tired. i'm depressed. i'm sad. i'm cold. i'm angry. i'm sick of it all. what else can i say. i dont understand y. i look back. i look into my past. when i was young i was happy. then i became sad. n it didnt change until freshman year of high school. then i became sad again. n it hasnt truely changed since then. it just shows that happiness is temporary for me. that i can be happy for only a short time. that's it. i dunno. maybe it's the weather change. i dunno. i dont think so though. i understand myself better. i should be happy. i understand life better. i should be happy. but y am i not. bc who i am is nothing to be happy about. what i've became n what i've been is nothing to be happy about. bc the reality of life isnt happy. the truth is all lies. maybe i just dont want to except the reality. maybe i'm creating things in my mind without even knowing. i dunno. i hate who i am. i really do. i dont blame anyone for not liking me. i understand y no girl wants to go out with me. i'm an asshole. i'm useless. i have nothing that a girl wants. theres no point. one more term. that's all i gotta get through. one more term. then i'm done. then i go to work n quit everything else..... mark my words. i'll be a warrior. i'll start the revolution. i'll be known. the history books will write my name. i cant give my family children. i cant keep the blood line going. but i will not let our name die.... piracy....