All the Things You Ought To Do! (OOC, Personal Stuffs)
(( will be cross-posted to my tumblr ))
I mentioned in the OOC twitter channel quite late last night (after several peoples' bedtimes, as it turned out) that I received some pretty bad news IRL last night. I debated whether or not I was going to make a post about it for those who missed it, but then I decided to avoid weird questions/theories/generalized what even I might as well. It's not hurting anyone to do so!
First of all, I am quite fine. My family has dealt with one thing or another for almost ten years now, and while I have my moments of OMG I'm generally pretty good at compartmentalizing with no ill effects. And anyone that has extended sympathies so far despite not knowing what was happening, I thank you! It was very much appreciated!
It is not an overly personal subject. My mom has not been feeling well over the last several months and while we thought it was improper care following a gastric surgery in November (because the doctors at that office really are a bunch of maniacs) there has been the recent discovery of the fact that some suspicious cells that couldn't be removed have in fact developed into stomach cancer. She is currently undergoing a series of radiation. I had my hour or so of hysteria and generalized yelling at the universe, but I and my family are quite alright as of this point.
Why am I posting about this?
Simply, I do not want anyone to feel like they have to be weird or cautious or sensitive around me. In fact, I encourage absolute normalcy! Go about your business, talk about whatever, make inappropriate jokes. Oh gods yes, please. XD Distraction is the best thing now, as you have all gotten me through worse crises in the past you had no idea were even happening (because I did not share at the time) just by being yourselves. I simply wanted to notify in advance that if I flake out on something, drop unexpectedly, or back out of something planned it was nothing personal. I do not foresee this happening whatsoever, as my entire family would rather we did not live our lives walking on eggshells around this situation and let it always sit at the forefront of our minds. But because it COULD, I would rather be safe than sorry. Communication is, as always, key. Especially when we're forced to work through text here! Being positive and focusing on LIFE is key. We have all been through this before as a family, so we are rather acquainted with the goings-on. It's just a bit scarier for me personall because of where it is, so while I am experiencing a bit more anxiety than usual I don't want anyone to feel like they ought to handle me or my feelings carefully. I am not going to flip a table and eat your face, I promise (but Trae might. X3).
I am open to RP of all types throughout! Feel free to attack Traejan with scathing remarks, stab my nice innocent warlock, etc. I am all good! In general I am not a triggery person, so I apologize if my unexpected unload in the channel (for those present) was uncomfortable for anyone else. That was never my intention. I didn't mean it in that way, but I was in the midst of OMG CRISIS MODE at the time and barely avoiding jumping in my car for the ten hour drive to Atlanta to check on my mother myself (as I couldn't get a hold of her at all that day prior to the news and my brother can be a douche to rule all douchebags sometimes). Thankfully she just had her phone silenced for a nap and didn't get my emails either. Accurately called by someone I was talking with at the time! :)
I simply want to stress normalcy here guys. No pressure, no worries. :) You're all great folks and great friends and we have a lot of fun together, which is all the support I could ever ask for in the middle of something like this (and I don't even have to ask, you guys just ooze the awesome!). And as such, you deserved to know what's what. NOW SAIL ONWARD FOR GREAT JUSTICE.
Thanks everyone. <3
I mentioned in the OOC twitter channel quite late last night (after several peoples' bedtimes, as it turned out) that I received some pretty bad news IRL last night. I debated whether or not I was going to make a post about it for those who missed it, but then I decided to avoid weird questions/theories/generalized what even I might as well. It's not hurting anyone to do so!
First of all, I am quite fine. My family has dealt with one thing or another for almost ten years now, and while I have my moments of OMG I'm generally pretty good at compartmentalizing with no ill effects. And anyone that has extended sympathies so far despite not knowing what was happening, I thank you! It was very much appreciated!
It is not an overly personal subject. My mom has not been feeling well over the last several months and while we thought it was improper care following a gastric surgery in November (because the doctors at that office really are a bunch of maniacs) there has been the recent discovery of the fact that some suspicious cells that couldn't be removed have in fact developed into stomach cancer. She is currently undergoing a series of radiation. I had my hour or so of hysteria and generalized yelling at the universe, but I and my family are quite alright as of this point.
Why am I posting about this?
Simply, I do not want anyone to feel like they have to be weird or cautious or sensitive around me. In fact, I encourage absolute normalcy! Go about your business, talk about whatever, make inappropriate jokes. Oh gods yes, please. XD Distraction is the best thing now, as you have all gotten me through worse crises in the past you had no idea were even happening (because I did not share at the time) just by being yourselves. I simply wanted to notify in advance that if I flake out on something, drop unexpectedly, or back out of something planned it was nothing personal. I do not foresee this happening whatsoever, as my entire family would rather we did not live our lives walking on eggshells around this situation and let it always sit at the forefront of our minds. But because it COULD, I would rather be safe than sorry. Communication is, as always, key. Especially when we're forced to work through text here! Being positive and focusing on LIFE is key. We have all been through this before as a family, so we are rather acquainted with the goings-on. It's just a bit scarier for me personall because of where it is, so while I am experiencing a bit more anxiety than usual I don't want anyone to feel like they ought to handle me or my feelings carefully. I am not going to flip a table and eat your face, I promise (but Trae might. X3).
I am open to RP of all types throughout! Feel free to attack Traejan with scathing remarks, stab my nice innocent warlock, etc. I am all good! In general I am not a triggery person, so I apologize if my unexpected unload in the channel (for those present) was uncomfortable for anyone else. That was never my intention. I didn't mean it in that way, but I was in the midst of OMG CRISIS MODE at the time and barely avoiding jumping in my car for the ten hour drive to Atlanta to check on my mother myself (as I couldn't get a hold of her at all that day prior to the news and my brother can be a douche to rule all douchebags sometimes). Thankfully she just had her phone silenced for a nap and didn't get my emails either. Accurately called by someone I was talking with at the time! :)
I simply want to stress normalcy here guys. No pressure, no worries. :) You're all great folks and great friends and we have a lot of fun together, which is all the support I could ever ask for in the middle of something like this (and I don't even have to ask, you guys just ooze the awesome!). And as such, you deserved to know what's what. NOW SAIL ONWARD FOR GREAT JUSTICE.
Thanks everyone. <3