ATTN: The Twitter Project (OOC, personal stuffs)
(( cross-posted from tumblr ))
So, I decided to make a public tumblr post to cover all bases (and I have cross-posted to LiveJournal for the same reasons). Exposure to as many involved here is key.
I realize there was some misunderstandings as to what went on last night in regards to the events on twitter.
Let me preface this all by saying tha I am not upset, angry, butthurt, offended, or any other negative things. The RP was actually quite fun!
My anxiety came from the fact that I was confused over the whole thing, which was the result of a few things which I will now explain.
Firstly, the topic preceding the entire event hadn’t come together in my mind to ease into the rest. It seemed odd to begin with, but it is normal (and acceptable) for characters to comment and hold opinions ICly. The presence of my character was minimal at that point, simply to defend Thistle a bit and explain that his feelings were legitimate considering what had occurred with Tarin the night before.
He attempted not to engage with Aenstrian, but expected the usual amount of snide commentary and jabs that Aenstrian and Jadall are known for whenever they are all at once presently writing.
When Aenstrian unloaded on him and aired all the dirty laundry of his past was shocking IC and OOCly.
Let me emphasize tha I do not mind the fact that people dislike my character. He is a difficult, abrasive, racist Death Knight. He is capable of being a very dangerous person with one hell of a shady past, and it would be a massive understatement to say that his behaviour can be at its best questionable and at its worst horrible (and illegal). He has his good qualities but god damnit could he make it any harder to put up with the rest long enough to see them. I have been RPing this very same character across two realms since the very day that Wrath of the Lich King dropped. His overall story and purpose has changed, but his personality has always been the same. I am used to him being hated, hunted, jailed, tortured, etc. This all comes with the territory of roleplaying a character of this nature. It seems to be his lot to fall in with the wrong people and then have to dig his way out of things, as that has happened on both realms now. I enjoy the character development and the experiences that come about from it. I enjoy the interactions with different characters, positive or negative. ICly he might hope that people will all just let it go eventually, but OOCly I get that people do not get over things overnight. He also has his share of deep-seated issues!
At no point to I expect everyone to suddenly love the guy. I don’t expect characters to hand-wave what he’s done and let everything be sunshine and unicorns. I don’t mind the needling and the snark and the arguments when they occur from time to time. I find the plot that is the fall and slow, painful, and at times fruitless struggle to attempt to redeem himself in some fashion to be very entertaining. Not everyone is going to see him as redeemed or better at the end too. It happens. Every character has their personality and their quirks and they are allowed to make their own opinions.
This was a misunderstanding because unfortunately I do not know much about the characters involved. My interaction with Aenstian and co. is extremely limited, since it largely occurs in the tome and when it involves Traejan it tends to be a lot of anger on both ends ICly. I only know that Aenstrian has obvious and logical issues with the Scourge and those who engage in and enjoy behaviours that trigger these issues. Of course it would disgust him and draw hate from him!
I can only say that I, OOCly, was not aware of the current plot surrounding Aenstrian’s character and his emotional state. Last I heard of him outside the tome is his involvement with Rosefica, Kiren, etc. My confusion and anxiety last night was simply becaus I worried that I personally had crossed a line in some way with people I unfortunately do not talk to as much as I’d like to.
The implications that the IC/OOC line was being blurred is something I would like to apologize for now. I am sure you are all aware of what I dealt with not that long ago. What you don’t realize is that many days and weeks went by before I ever knew what was going on (beyond the daily dose of wtf even), and then the bomb dropped. Many days of wondering what was going on and how people felt about me or what I had really done wrong. That has made me a bit anxious that that might happen again, and I apologize if my panicking bothered anyone last night.
I’d just like to say that I don’t bite! Please pleas if you ever have an issue with me I would rather deal with it presently rather than later, especially if you’ve an issue that is only getting worse for my ignorance. Ideally, none of us should have any, so that’s hopefully a moot point but I am always open to talk
Now!
That aside, I am curious to see where things go ICly from here on out, knowing that no OOC anxieties need play into it. :)
So, I decided to make a public tumblr post to cover all bases (and I have cross-posted to LiveJournal for the same reasons). Exposure to as many involved here is key.
I realize there was some misunderstandings as to what went on last night in regards to the events on twitter.
Let me preface this all by saying tha I am not upset, angry, butthurt, offended, or any other negative things. The RP was actually quite fun!
My anxiety came from the fact that I was confused over the whole thing, which was the result of a few things which I will now explain.
Firstly, the topic preceding the entire event hadn’t come together in my mind to ease into the rest. It seemed odd to begin with, but it is normal (and acceptable) for characters to comment and hold opinions ICly. The presence of my character was minimal at that point, simply to defend Thistle a bit and explain that his feelings were legitimate considering what had occurred with Tarin the night before.
He attempted not to engage with Aenstrian, but expected the usual amount of snide commentary and jabs that Aenstrian and Jadall are known for whenever they are all at once presently writing.
When Aenstrian unloaded on him and aired all the dirty laundry of his past was shocking IC and OOCly.
Let me emphasize tha I do not mind the fact that people dislike my character. He is a difficult, abrasive, racist Death Knight. He is capable of being a very dangerous person with one hell of a shady past, and it would be a massive understatement to say that his behaviour can be at its best questionable and at its worst horrible (and illegal). He has his good qualities but god damnit could he make it any harder to put up with the rest long enough to see them. I have been RPing this very same character across two realms since the very day that Wrath of the Lich King dropped. His overall story and purpose has changed, but his personality has always been the same. I am used to him being hated, hunted, jailed, tortured, etc. This all comes with the territory of roleplaying a character of this nature. It seems to be his lot to fall in with the wrong people and then have to dig his way out of things, as that has happened on both realms now. I enjoy the character development and the experiences that come about from it. I enjoy the interactions with different characters, positive or negative. ICly he might hope that people will all just let it go eventually, but OOCly I get that people do not get over things overnight. He also has his share of deep-seated issues!
At no point to I expect everyone to suddenly love the guy. I don’t expect characters to hand-wave what he’s done and let everything be sunshine and unicorns. I don’t mind the needling and the snark and the arguments when they occur from time to time. I find the plot that is the fall and slow, painful, and at times fruitless struggle to attempt to redeem himself in some fashion to be very entertaining. Not everyone is going to see him as redeemed or better at the end too. It happens. Every character has their personality and their quirks and they are allowed to make their own opinions.
This was a misunderstanding because unfortunately I do not know much about the characters involved. My interaction with Aenstian and co. is extremely limited, since it largely occurs in the tome and when it involves Traejan it tends to be a lot of anger on both ends ICly. I only know that Aenstrian has obvious and logical issues with the Scourge and those who engage in and enjoy behaviours that trigger these issues. Of course it would disgust him and draw hate from him!
I can only say that I, OOCly, was not aware of the current plot surrounding Aenstrian’s character and his emotional state. Last I heard of him outside the tome is his involvement with Rosefica, Kiren, etc. My confusion and anxiety last night was simply becaus I worried that I personally had crossed a line in some way with people I unfortunately do not talk to as much as I’d like to.
The implications that the IC/OOC line was being blurred is something I would like to apologize for now. I am sure you are all aware of what I dealt with not that long ago. What you don’t realize is that many days and weeks went by before I ever knew what was going on (beyond the daily dose of wtf even), and then the bomb dropped. Many days of wondering what was going on and how people felt about me or what I had really done wrong. That has made me a bit anxious that that might happen again, and I apologize if my panicking bothered anyone last night.
I’d just like to say that I don’t bite! Please pleas if you ever have an issue with me I would rather deal with it presently rather than later, especially if you’ve an issue that is only getting worse for my ignorance. Ideally, none of us should have any, so that’s hopefully a moot point but I am always open to talk
Now!
That aside, I am curious to see where things go ICly from here on out, knowing that no OOC anxieties need play into it. :)