Some people say it's a gift, I say it's a curse.

[prettyrazorgirl]

I always see things the way they are, rather than an idea. Like I look at Jeremy, and all I see is what he feels, and how I feel for him. I can't go up to him and ask him why he does this... but he does. I catch him looking @ me and it drives me nuts, mainly because I'm doing the same thing. I watch him and feel what he feels. I see things that aren't there yet.

I just wish that I didn't feel all this happening, I see things and feel them. I just hate it.. I have this thing where I am very perceptive, and I know what people are thinking/feeling. Today, Jeremy asked me if I was mad at him, and I said "no." Crossed my legs and turned around. Then, I felt him looking at me, and just wondering if I was lying or not. He tapped me on the shoulder, and said, "Mary's mad at me." Then I turned around and said "no, you would know if I was mad at you."

I really can't stand this. It drives me nuts, knowing that I care about him, and knowing that he cares about me. It's not that we're not together that bothers me, it's the fact that I told him, to go after some one else, and he pretends to, but still watches me from afar, and I do the same.

*sigh* It's not a gift I tell you, it's a curse