update
M and I broke up. If you can call whatever we had a relationship, it's over. He wants to be just friends, for the time being. Whatever. So yeah, it was his idea. I don't agree with it, but I don't think you can force someone to date you, so I'm going along. But I'm not sitting around waiting for him to change his mind. It is bringing up all kinds of really fun, low self-esteem issues again, so thanks for that, M! Ya douche...this all kind of started Saturday, but really went down on Monday night. Interestingly, he texted me yesterday and today, and started and IM conversation tonight. I have only responded, not instigated. That's basically my plan: let him contact me when he wants, but keep myself busy otherwise, so I'm not waiting around for his call (and so he doesn't get that idea, either), be friendly and polite but not overly excited to hear from him. Oh, and I've been instructed by several to make sure I look hotter than I've ever looked before whenever I do see him.
I'm not heartbroken, per se. I'm not in love with him...but it still sucks and hurts and all that stupid shit that is just so much fun to deal with.
On an unrelated note, my new cat is a-frickin-dorable! She still needs a name, though...we keep calling her Boo or The Boo, but I call all animals that...and sometimes people...it's really more of a general nickname, and not suitable as a permanent moniker. I'm trying to find the perfect water-related name, maybe something mythic or in another language. She's a Manx, so I'm leaning towards Gaelic...
Work pretty well sucked tonight, and I hate it again. I was as close to quitting and walking out as I've ever been, and certainly the closest in weeks. I need to find a job that doesn't consume my soul so much, and maybe even one I like a little bit...
I'm not heartbroken, per se. I'm not in love with him...but it still sucks and hurts and all that stupid shit that is just so much fun to deal with.
On an unrelated note, my new cat is a-frickin-dorable! She still needs a name, though...we keep calling her Boo or The Boo, but I call all animals that...and sometimes people...it's really more of a general nickname, and not suitable as a permanent moniker. I'm trying to find the perfect water-related name, maybe something mythic or in another language. She's a Manx, so I'm leaning towards Gaelic...
Work pretty well sucked tonight, and I hate it again. I was as close to quitting and walking out as I've ever been, and certainly the closest in weeks. I need to find a job that doesn't consume my soul so much, and maybe even one I like a little bit...