And even though you may think everything possible has happened to you, there's always more.
Lately... Things have been dragging by. Nothing interesting really. School's almost out, and then I'll be a senior... but for some insane, unknown reason, that doesn't excite me or make me happy. It actually makes me kinda sad. I don't know whether it's the last year of school and kinda the last year of childhood that's making me sad, or if it's the going to PD another year that's making me so damn pessimistic. Maybe it's just me. Who knows... I don't think anyone even reads this thing of mine anymore... Not that I care. Really, I don't blame ne one for not reading this. Quite boring.
Hmm, I saw my recent X the weekend before last. It was the first time I'd been around him since I broke up w/ him after I found out he was cheating on me. While I was over there at the house with him on the weekend b4 last, I found out from Laura (It's her house that I always go to, and that's where I met my x) that they'd had a little talk right b4 I got there... here's a sum up of it.
Laura: "Jade's coming over. You two going to be uncomfortable around each other?"
X: "The only one who might be uncomfortable is Jade."
L: "She'll be fine. Oh, and by the way, I'm the one that busted you."
x: "... What are you talking about?"
L: "I'm the one who told Jade that you were cheating on her."
x: "Why would you do that??!"
L: "Because I saw you at the movies with that girl hanging all over you, and I knew that you were messing around on Jade. So I told her. Look, I told you in the very beginning that you could go out with Jade, but if you broke her heart you would regret it. She's my girl. I've known her since she was in diapers. I told you that my loyalties lie with her."
x: "But I wasn't cheating on her! Me and Jade we already fighting and we weren't really talking anymore-"
L: "Don't try to bullshit me, I know that's a lie. You two were doing fine until I told her about you and that girl."
and pretty much after that he didn't object or try to deny ne thing. Fucker. Well, at least now I know that me breaking up w/ him was the best thing to do, and that I made the right choice, you know?
Uhhg...
"Hurt" Johnny Cash
I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything
[Chorus:]
What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
I wear this crown of thorns
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still right here
[Chorus:]
What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way
Some song I saw that kinda describes things right now. Retarded...
I get to go to South Carolina this summer! I'm so excited :) I get to see all my cousins. Awesome.
I g2g now, Stephen's coming over. Byes
♥ me not
**tAke mE aWaY tO pAraDiSe**
Hmm, I saw my recent X the weekend before last. It was the first time I'd been around him since I broke up w/ him after I found out he was cheating on me. While I was over there at the house with him on the weekend b4 last, I found out from Laura (It's her house that I always go to, and that's where I met my x) that they'd had a little talk right b4 I got there... here's a sum up of it.
Laura: "Jade's coming over. You two going to be uncomfortable around each other?"
X: "The only one who might be uncomfortable is Jade."
L: "She'll be fine. Oh, and by the way, I'm the one that busted you."
x: "... What are you talking about?"
L: "I'm the one who told Jade that you were cheating on her."
x: "Why would you do that??!"
L: "Because I saw you at the movies with that girl hanging all over you, and I knew that you were messing around on Jade. So I told her. Look, I told you in the very beginning that you could go out with Jade, but if you broke her heart you would regret it. She's my girl. I've known her since she was in diapers. I told you that my loyalties lie with her."
x: "But I wasn't cheating on her! Me and Jade we already fighting and we weren't really talking anymore-"
L: "Don't try to bullshit me, I know that's a lie. You two were doing fine until I told her about you and that girl."
and pretty much after that he didn't object or try to deny ne thing. Fucker. Well, at least now I know that me breaking up w/ him was the best thing to do, and that I made the right choice, you know?
Uhhg...
"Hurt" Johnny Cash
I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything
[Chorus:]
What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
I wear this crown of thorns
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still right here
[Chorus:]
What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way
Some song I saw that kinda describes things right now. Retarded...
I get to go to South Carolina this summer! I'm so excited :) I get to see all my cousins. Awesome.
I g2g now, Stephen's coming over. Byes
♥ me not
**tAke mE aWaY tO pAraDiSe**