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Family is the number one most important thing in my life.
I only truely respect & fear the opinions of my blood (& Mrs.Parks).
And I am seriously sick & tired of letting people financially rape my family.
Seriously, they are comfortable. Im not going to lie. But that doesn't mean they aren't up to their fucking ears in debt. Between house restorations, fundraising shit, Drew, me, my grandparents..they've got their plate full & I truely have to stop giving others their money. I have no right & I haven't seen a cent back from any of them.
We're talking thousands of dollars here.
And when I think about it, it makes me sick to my stomach. I feel violated. But even more so ashamed, cuz I let these fuckers take it. Hell, sometimes I offer it.
Yes, there are some people I don't mind lending to, because I know theyre good for it. And they know theyre good for it.
But shit, Im pissed off.
It may be in part to the fact that Im broke right now myself & no one's lending a hand. Theyre just asking.
It may also be in part to the fact that Ive been having to much empty fun & spending stupid amounts of money getting drunk.
It may be due to the fact that Im kind of really miserable right now with absolutely no one to talk to (cuz the people I can talk to ie. best friend, mom..are going through wwaaayy heavier shit than me right now).
But Im stoked on two things: Im working again (& its a dope ass place with stellar peoples) and Im glad I FINALLY got to roll deep with Tara..cuz she's mad ttiigghht.
Except for that & the select few that have been putting a smile on my face...the rest of the world can suck my clit.
I only truely respect & fear the opinions of my blood (& Mrs.Parks).
And I am seriously sick & tired of letting people financially rape my family.
Seriously, they are comfortable. Im not going to lie. But that doesn't mean they aren't up to their fucking ears in debt. Between house restorations, fundraising shit, Drew, me, my grandparents..they've got their plate full & I truely have to stop giving others their money. I have no right & I haven't seen a cent back from any of them.
We're talking thousands of dollars here.
And when I think about it, it makes me sick to my stomach. I feel violated. But even more so ashamed, cuz I let these fuckers take it. Hell, sometimes I offer it.
Yes, there are some people I don't mind lending to, because I know theyre good for it. And they know theyre good for it.
But shit, Im pissed off.
It may be in part to the fact that Im broke right now myself & no one's lending a hand. Theyre just asking.
It may also be in part to the fact that Ive been having to much empty fun & spending stupid amounts of money getting drunk.
It may be due to the fact that Im kind of really miserable right now with absolutely no one to talk to (cuz the people I can talk to ie. best friend, mom..are going through wwaaayy heavier shit than me right now).
But Im stoked on two things: Im working again (& its a dope ass place with stellar peoples) and Im glad I FINALLY got to roll deep with Tara..cuz she's mad ttiigghht.
Except for that & the select few that have been putting a smile on my face...the rest of the world can suck my clit.