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I just needed a chance to write some stuff out before I started work.
Long time no write.
I'm going to re-decorate my room. Make it the place that I can run away to that I have so longed to have. Its going to be a darkish purple I hope. I just want it dark, darkness is always a haven. I just feel alot more relaxed thinking about it.
The process is going to take a very long time, I have alot of stuff to throw. Almost loose ends really. My room reflects my head, and it needs alot of time to start cleaning it out.
I can't even walk across it for the amount of junk hovering around.
It will be an achievment when its done, because it will all be my effort into something. I suppose another form of control.
I have two controls now, my room and my food. Not saying I can't control anything else...well not at this point in time, but maybe by christmas I might feel a little refreshed and ready to start again.
Hopefully.
Long time no write.
I'm going to re-decorate my room. Make it the place that I can run away to that I have so longed to have. Its going to be a darkish purple I hope. I just want it dark, darkness is always a haven. I just feel alot more relaxed thinking about it.
The process is going to take a very long time, I have alot of stuff to throw. Almost loose ends really. My room reflects my head, and it needs alot of time to start cleaning it out.
I can't even walk across it for the amount of junk hovering around.
It will be an achievment when its done, because it will all be my effort into something. I suppose another form of control.
I have two controls now, my room and my food. Not saying I can't control anything else...well not at this point in time, but maybe by christmas I might feel a little refreshed and ready to start again.
Hopefully.