I'm pathetic
So i decided to create a MySpace account cuz i finished my homework and wasn't tired and had nothing else to do. So i create it and then i search for brittney so i can tell her i have an account now. And while im there i see jerseys so i look at it. it made me cry. On his 'about me' thing, it says that when he finishes college he wants to move back to jersey and marry the love of his life, ally. And it says they've been together for 3 years.
Reading that hurt me so bad. I don't know if its old or if he still has a girl in jersey waiting for him and he's just occupying his time while he's here. But either way, to read that actually made me cry. And i feel horrible now and... i don't know.
Either way (if it's up to date or not) i know jersey and i arent gonna get married or anything, i mean hes 18, im 16, you don't find the person you'll spend the rest of your life with at this age. But to think that he's inlove with someone else, that he's not mine and i'm not his and i'm just here, i feel like crap.
I care about him so much and to think that there's a chance i don't mean anything to him, I feel like I want to die inside. I know I'm overreacting but that is just how I'm feeling. and I can't stop crying.
I haven't talked to him in 2 days. And now I feel kind of alone.
ANd what's creepy-er... i checked out this ally chick's myspace, and her heading is "i should tell you, im disaster" and thats EXACTLY what mine says too. I was just so odd.
Okay well I guess i have nothing more to say, just that I don't feel well anymore. And i really hurt.
Reading that hurt me so bad. I don't know if its old or if he still has a girl in jersey waiting for him and he's just occupying his time while he's here. But either way, to read that actually made me cry. And i feel horrible now and... i don't know.
Either way (if it's up to date or not) i know jersey and i arent gonna get married or anything, i mean hes 18, im 16, you don't find the person you'll spend the rest of your life with at this age. But to think that he's inlove with someone else, that he's not mine and i'm not his and i'm just here, i feel like crap.
I care about him so much and to think that there's a chance i don't mean anything to him, I feel like I want to die inside. I know I'm overreacting but that is just how I'm feeling. and I can't stop crying.
I haven't talked to him in 2 days. And now I feel kind of alone.
ANd what's creepy-er... i checked out this ally chick's myspace, and her heading is "i should tell you, im disaster" and thats EXACTLY what mine says too. I was just so odd.
Okay well I guess i have nothing more to say, just that I don't feel well anymore. And i really hurt.