Hey Bre, I just wanted to post you some support. I know we havent known each other that long, but I do know Beuford's class just aint the same without ya! Dont worry so much about Keil. And yes, I know that this is easy for me to say, because Im not you and Im not in your postion. I just wanted you to know that I am there for you. And I hope you know that I would never judge you. You are a wonderful person no matter what Keil or anyone else says. Man, reading these past few entries of yours, I swear they made me cry. I had no idea just what you were going through. I feel terrible for not being there for you, even though I know there was no way I could. Dont ever, EVER feel stupid for not wanting to have sex. If that is all Keil wanted, then he's just a pig. But I know you love him. I can see it in your eyes when we have our 'girltalk' in 3rd. I havent ever met anyone like you Bre. You are a strong person that is being pushed to the breaking point. Im not really friends with Keil, *shrugs* I talk to him sometimes when I see him, but thats it. But I tell you what, I hate that he has done this to you. I wish to God that I knew the before-Keil-Bre. Im hoping that you can get it back Bre. You have already been such a wonderful friend to me, and I hope this gives you a little bit of a pick-up. You know my number, please call me. I know that whatever happens, I can talk to you. Please know that you can always talk to me. Im sure you get frustrated with my being a Christian sometimes, but I love that you respect me for that. And I respect you as well. Youve become like a sister to me, and i hate that I dont really know you. But I really want to. All of this is completly from my heart Bre. And I hope people dont take this as me loving Bre in any other way than a friend and a sister. Im here for you Bre. And I love ya sis. Heather
I haven't done shit. Ugh. Will everyone drop this sex thing. I didn't pressure Bre into anything ever. She never once complained to me about anything, and literally every single time before we even kissed if she even remotely look wrong I would stop and be like are you okay, if Bre made one bloody comment to me about anything I would stop and we'd do something else.
This was never a problem while we were dating, ever, this was never brought up. I never engaged in anything, ANYTHING, that I wasn't told to do. I just didn't. I can remember one point during the first week when we were dating that I noticed just a look on Bre's face, and I stopped right then and there, if Bre was ever uncomforatable with anything we did, all she had to do was look at me. I'm not saying we did anything sexual, that's pretty much hear say and I've said my point on it on what I"m going to say, but I never pressured Bre into anything.
STOP MAKING ME A BAD GUY FOR SOMETHING I"M NOT.
If you want to call me an uncaring cunt of a douchy boy. Fine, okay I can see that, I have bad issues with caring about stuff, also I have had a hard time feeling connected to Bre since the second time she dumped me and a lot of stuff happend that was never once talked about. EVER. Also when she freaked out for Tara being over here. She intially through the fit that led to our break up because she was jealous over KC and when comments, EVIL EVIL comments were made about KC I stood my ground on what i thought was right, I took up for KC, I have no romantic intrest in KC, but I care for her deeply, and I just couldn't stand to see her hurt like for no reason.
I've said it before I did my best with Bre, my best. If it wasn't good enough, then it never will be, she doesn't need to be heartbroken for what I can't give her, I gave her all I could for as long as I could.
This is the third time she's broken up with me. What do you people want out of me?
Heather you know me. I was super nice to you, did I ever bring up sex to you ever? Did you ever her me mention sexual innuedo, hell how many people when they think of me they think man that's a person that just pressures sex on people all the time.
No when you think of me you think of video games and comics and how stupid and or funny I can be, or can't be.
Heather think hard, read both side of this arguement before you make up your mind abotu anything.
If you want to make me a bad guy, make it for what I am. Not for something that it seems easy to pin on the older guy. Also can you name one freind that you gave up for me? Are you talking about the people that picked George over you? Wow. Those are pretty shitty freinds in the first place, as you have said yourself Bre. I've heard you say some bad things about your "FREINDS" lots of bad things, I"m sorry I pick my freinds well and I will stand up for them because I don't just pick whoever gives me attention, I pick people that are smart and intelligent and give me sparkling conversation and are loyal motivated and trying to do what in their mind are the right things.
Sheesh. I want to know one real freind you've lost over me. Hell, the freinds that i knew of yours were Andrea who I have a weird love/hate relationship and whether I agree with her or not, not matter how much I don't like her, or don't mind her, or whatever I'm freind with Andrea pretty much, I just tell her shit straight instead of talk behind her back like you do. What about Nicole, I thought Nicole was an awesome freind and I remember a whole bloody weekend I took you and Nicole all over the place trying to help her gain closure on a shitty situation, she seemed to like me well enough, and we weren't even dating on that weekend and I got little to no attention what so ever.
Come on. Named a freind, that is a true freind you've lost. Every single freind of yours that actually knew me, or got to know seemed to like me. Hey even Goth Ashley and I have had our good conversation as well our bad, and while I can't say she liked me she never once left you because of me. Hell I even took up for her at one point against you.
First off Keil, honestly I dont know you. No, I can not honestly sit here and say that you every said anything sexual TO ME or AROUND ME. But how many times have I talked to you? Im not here to argue, Im just giving my friend support. If you read up there I said ((and I quote))*If that is all Keil wanted, then he's just a pig.* Keil, I dont know what goes on between you two, and I would appriciate it if you didnt yell at me for something I never meant to hurt with. IF is a big word, even with it only being two letters. Ive never had a problem with you. I just hate to see a girl so special as Bre getting hurt. Bre, I am sorry if I upset you. I know you know that I never meant anything hurtful by this. The whole purpose of my post was to let you know that I care that you are hurt, and Im here to support you. Keil, I never once said that you werent nice to me. We have had some pretty cool convos and I dont hate you. You say I know you, well you know me too. Have you ever known me to just try and hurt someone? if you say yes, your lieing, and you know it. Im sorry to anyone if my post offended you. This was NEVER the intention. Heather
keil how about you shut the fuck up? hmm? i dont give a flying fuck about you anymore. quit so damn defensive over something someone wrote on lij. good goddamn almighty, why dont you go get a life sweetheart?
this lij stuff is bullshit anyways... Keil. what i did not like about andrea i told her. we worked things out, concluded you were the liar and now we are better. nicole knows i think she's a bitch sometimes, actually i just had this conversation with her last night when she was telling me about ricky missing me. ALL my "close" friends abandoned me when i started dating you...andrea did becasue she knew all this would happen, nicole complained becasue you took up all my time, Brandon and dustin were mad because you were mean to me and i always crying or depressed over you, all my youth group hated you because you made me second guess who i was and my religion, not that any of this was all that important to me but since i am without you i am MUCH MUCH MUCH depressed but happier at the same time. hard to explain but youdont deserve it anyways...
GO AWAY keil. get out of my bloody life... i am too good for you.
I just wanted to post you some support. I know we havent known each other that long, but I do know Beuford's class just aint the same without ya! Dont worry so much about Keil. And yes, I know that this is easy for me to say, because Im not you and Im not in your postion. I just wanted you to know that I am there for you. And I hope you know that I would never judge you. You are a wonderful person no matter what Keil or anyone else says. Man, reading these past few entries of yours, I swear they made me cry. I had no idea just what you were going through. I feel terrible for not being there for you, even though I know there was no way I could. Dont ever, EVER feel stupid for not wanting to have sex. If that is all Keil wanted, then he's just a pig. But I know you love him. I can see it in your eyes when we have our 'girltalk' in 3rd. I havent ever met anyone like you Bre. You are a strong person that is being pushed to the breaking point. Im not really friends with Keil, *shrugs* I talk to him sometimes when I see him, but thats it. But I tell you what, I hate that he has done this to you. I wish to God that I knew the before-Keil-Bre. Im hoping that you can get it back Bre. You have already been such a wonderful friend to me, and I hope this gives you a little bit of a pick-up. You know my number, please call me. I know that whatever happens, I can talk to you. Please know that you can always talk to me. Im sure you get frustrated with my being a Christian sometimes, but I love that you respect me for that. And I respect you as well. Youve become like a sister to me, and i hate that I dont really know you. But I really want to.
All of this is completly from my heart Bre. And I hope people dont take this as me loving Bre in any other way than a friend and a sister. Im here for you Bre. And I love ya sis.
Heather
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I haven't done shit. Ugh. Will everyone drop this sex thing. I didn't pressure Bre into anything ever. She never once complained to me about anything, and literally every single time before we even kissed if she even remotely look wrong I would stop and be like are you okay, if Bre made one bloody comment to me about anything I would stop and we'd do something else.
This was never a problem while we were dating, ever, this was never brought up. I never engaged in anything, ANYTHING, that I wasn't told to do. I just didn't. I can remember one point during the first week when we were dating that I noticed just a look on Bre's face, and I stopped right then and there, if Bre was ever uncomforatable with anything we did, all she had to do was look at me. I'm not saying we did anything sexual, that's pretty much hear say and I've said my point on it on what I"m going to say, but I never pressured Bre into anything.
STOP MAKING ME A BAD GUY FOR SOMETHING I"M NOT.
If you want to call me an uncaring cunt of a douchy boy. Fine, okay I can see that, I have bad issues with caring about stuff, also I have had a hard time feeling connected to Bre since the second time she dumped me and a lot of stuff happend that was never once talked about. EVER. Also when she freaked out for Tara being over here. She intially through the fit that led to our break up because she was jealous over KC and when comments, EVIL EVIL comments were made about KC I stood my ground on what i thought was right, I took up for KC, I have no romantic intrest in KC, but I care for her deeply, and I just couldn't stand to see her hurt like for no reason.
I've said it before I did my best with Bre, my best. If it wasn't good enough, then it never will be, she doesn't need to be heartbroken for what I can't give her, I gave her all I could for as long as I could.
This is the third time she's broken up with me. What do you people want out of me?
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No when you think of me you think of video games and comics and how stupid and or funny I can be, or can't be.
Heather think hard, read both side of this arguement before you make up your mind abotu anything.
If you want to make me a bad guy, make it for what I am. Not for something that it seems easy to pin on the older guy. Also can you name one freind that you gave up for me? Are you talking about the people that picked George over you? Wow. Those are pretty shitty freinds in the first place, as you have said yourself Bre. I've heard you say some bad things about your "FREINDS" lots of bad things, I"m sorry I pick my freinds well and I will stand up for them because I don't just pick whoever gives me attention, I pick people that are smart and intelligent and give me sparkling conversation and are loyal motivated and trying to do what in their mind are the right things.
Sheesh. I want to know one real freind you've lost over me. Hell, the freinds that i knew of yours were Andrea who I have a weird love/hate relationship and whether I agree with her or not, not matter how much I don't like her, or don't mind her, or whatever I'm freind with Andrea pretty much, I just tell her shit straight instead of talk behind her back like you do. What about Nicole, I thought Nicole was an awesome freind and I remember a whole bloody weekend I took you and Nicole all over the place trying to help her gain closure on a shitty situation, she seemed to like me well enough, and we weren't even dating on that weekend and I got little to no attention what so ever.
Come on. Named a freind, that is a true freind you've lost. Every single freind of yours that actually knew me, or got to know seemed to like me. Hey even Goth Ashley and I have had our good conversation as well our bad, and while I can't say she liked me she never once left you because of me. Hell I even took up for her at one point against you.
Tell me the freinds you've lost over me.
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Bre, I am sorry if I upset you. I know you know that I never meant anything hurtful by this. The whole purpose of my post was to let you know that I care that you are hurt, and Im here to support you.
Keil, I never once said that you werent nice to me. We have had some pretty cool convos and I dont hate you. You say I know you, well you know me too. Have you ever known me to just try and hurt someone? if you say yes, your lieing, and you know it.
Im sorry to anyone if my post offended you. This was NEVER the intention.
Heather
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hmm?
i dont give a flying fuck about you anymore.
quit so damn defensive over something someone wrote on lij. good goddamn almighty, why dont you go get a life sweetheart?
this lij stuff is bullshit anyways...
Keil. what i did not like about andrea i told her. we worked things out, concluded you were the liar and now we are better.
nicole knows i think she's a bitch sometimes, actually i just had this conversation with her last night when she was telling me about ricky missing me.
ALL my "close" friends abandoned me when i started dating you...andrea did becasue she knew all this would happen, nicole complained becasue you took up all my time, Brandon and dustin were mad because you were mean to me and i always crying or depressed over you, all my youth group hated you because you made me second guess who i was and my religion, not that any of this was all that important to me but since i am without you i am MUCH MUCH MUCH depressed but happier at the same time. hard to explain but youdont deserve it anyways...
GO AWAY keil.
get out of my bloody life...
i am too good for you.
Love Always
BreAnna
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