Randomness...
1. I don't feel very well. I don't know what it is, but it's kind of scaring me. I think I am letting my nerves get the best of me, but I never like to rule anything out. I feel like if you do you're letting yourself be shocked when you should have been prepared... does that make sense? I don't know. I just wish these weird afternoon/nightly belly aches would dissipate already.
2. Wedding budget. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Allen and I have to save around $3000 each for what we have to contribute to the wedding/honeymoon. That's a scary sum. Plus my Mom is all ready trying to cheap it up with e-mailing the florist and changing what I picked, shorting the guest list and on and on and on. I know I sound ungrateful, I'm not. Honest! I just want it to be wonderful for everyone, ya know? It's been a long road for Allen and I to get there, so I just want it to really be amazing.
3. I really need my Aunt to say yes to all of the wedding projects we need help with. *crossing fingers*
4. Allen asked his Dad for money today. Which, I am way proud of because usually Allen doesn't have the nerve to do that, and for him to is amazing. :] And his P.O.S. father needs to contribute anyways.
5. In addition to the money for the wedding that must be saved we also have to save money for:
- moving out
- household expenses
- his police school
- my bachelor's degree
- everything else under the sun.
6. I miss Allen, quite badly right now... I want him home, not in math class.
7. I am freaked about my Econ test that's in two weeks. I have to do well and I don't know if I'll be able to.
8. I wish people didn't fuck other people around. Just be straight up. I can handle whatever answer you give me, I just need an answer. I have to start planning and getting shit in order and I have too much vagueness everywhere!
9. I need to start going to the gym again.. I only went twice last week, and zero times so far this week.
10. I need to get like two more jobs. That scares me.
11. I just want to be able to read all of the crap that is stacked up next to my bed, but I haven't found the time or energy to do that...
12. I need a friend. :[
2. Wedding budget. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Allen and I have to save around $3000 each for what we have to contribute to the wedding/honeymoon. That's a scary sum. Plus my Mom is all ready trying to cheap it up with e-mailing the florist and changing what I picked, shorting the guest list and on and on and on. I know I sound ungrateful, I'm not. Honest! I just want it to be wonderful for everyone, ya know? It's been a long road for Allen and I to get there, so I just want it to really be amazing.
3. I really need my Aunt to say yes to all of the wedding projects we need help with. *crossing fingers*
4. Allen asked his Dad for money today. Which, I am way proud of because usually Allen doesn't have the nerve to do that, and for him to is amazing. :] And his P.O.S. father needs to contribute anyways.
5. In addition to the money for the wedding that must be saved we also have to save money for:
- moving out
- household expenses
- his police school
- my bachelor's degree
- everything else under the sun.
6. I miss Allen, quite badly right now... I want him home, not in math class.
7. I am freaked about my Econ test that's in two weeks. I have to do well and I don't know if I'll be able to.
8. I wish people didn't fuck other people around. Just be straight up. I can handle whatever answer you give me, I just need an answer. I have to start planning and getting shit in order and I have too much vagueness everywhere!
9. I need to start going to the gym again.. I only went twice last week, and zero times so far this week.
10. I need to get like two more jobs. That scares me.
11. I just want to be able to read all of the crap that is stacked up next to my bed, but I haven't found the time or energy to do that...
12. I need a friend. :[