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I'm having one of those days. Missing old friends, reminiscing over good times. I'm having one of those days where I wish things could be a bit like they used to be.
But then I remember how happy I am about things that have changed. Yeah, most of those changes have to do with me, but I am happy for them. I'm happy that I've gained a stronger and more honest sense of self. I'm glad that I've learned to love my body and all of it's strange shapes, curves, and folds. I'm excited that I'm taking initiative and doing what I want and not letting others dictate what I do. I'm proud to be opinionated and boisterous when other simply see me as being obnoxious and bitchy. I'm happy with the decisions I've made and I'm ready to putter along the course I have chosen.
Of the things that have changed, they have all been my doing. Friends for example. They didn't change, I did, and I did so for the better. Some friends were necessary to be rid of to grow. Others went their separate ways and try as we might, we couldn't relate anymore. Others still simply faded out of my life and have become the fodder of memories. I miss them, but I wouldn't have them back if it meant changing who I am at this moment, right now.
In other news, I've started a hair, skin and nails vitamin regiment to possibly strengthen my weak hair and help to clear up the final few spots on my chin. In about a month, I will check back with progress.
But then I remember how happy I am about things that have changed. Yeah, most of those changes have to do with me, but I am happy for them. I'm happy that I've gained a stronger and more honest sense of self. I'm glad that I've learned to love my body and all of it's strange shapes, curves, and folds. I'm excited that I'm taking initiative and doing what I want and not letting others dictate what I do. I'm proud to be opinionated and boisterous when other simply see me as being obnoxious and bitchy. I'm happy with the decisions I've made and I'm ready to putter along the course I have chosen.
Of the things that have changed, they have all been my doing. Friends for example. They didn't change, I did, and I did so for the better. Some friends were necessary to be rid of to grow. Others went their separate ways and try as we might, we couldn't relate anymore. Others still simply faded out of my life and have become the fodder of memories. I miss them, but I wouldn't have them back if it meant changing who I am at this moment, right now.
In other news, I've started a hair, skin and nails vitamin regiment to possibly strengthen my weak hair and help to clear up the final few spots on my chin. In about a month, I will check back with progress.