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it's funny how things change, and how i cling to non-change.
when we moved up here, danny was working in daly city, and i was working in san francisco. we had to find a place to live that took pets and provided a decent commute time. our townhome was rented with the understanding i'd be making a certain amount of money per month, and that situation has changed. danny's work location has changed. and his job situation will be changing too.
i am trying to shift my thinking so that we are the center of my life, instead of the house. i am totally home-oriented; i would make a great domestic-type person. i don't like leaving home and i am always happy to return to it. but when life situations change, it's not good for the actual, physical house to be the center of the universe (so to speak) because it's often necessary to be flexible, to flow where life takes you.
i've always known we'd move eventually, and lately it feels like the universe is carrying us downstream in that direction. aside from the roof over our heads, there's no strict need to stay where we are, especially if other opportunities present themselves. this is where my mentality comes in. it's ok for change to be scary, but it's not ok for me to always believe change leads to something worse. looking back in my life, change has almost always brought something better my way, even if the process was frightening and/or stressful (and more often than not, it was stressful because of my disproportionate fear). on the occasions it didn't bring something better, i always survived, and came out the other end stronger for having dealt with it.
anyhoo, we're driving up to vallejo this afternoon to take a quick peek at a house that may or may not be available for rent in a few months. vallejo is located in the northeast part of the SF bay area, and though it's a bit further away from marin than we were originally thinking, it's a possibility worth exploring. housing certainly is cheaper up there.
the rest of the day is going to drag; i'm excited about seeing it. even if it doesn't pan out, it feels good to be thinking beyond tomorrow, or next week. i had to put future daydreaming on hold back when the future depressed me, but i'm working hard to have faith in positive outcomes, so daydreaming canz be allowed kthx. ^_^
love kittie
when we moved up here, danny was working in daly city, and i was working in san francisco. we had to find a place to live that took pets and provided a decent commute time. our townhome was rented with the understanding i'd be making a certain amount of money per month, and that situation has changed. danny's work location has changed. and his job situation will be changing too.
i am trying to shift my thinking so that we are the center of my life, instead of the house. i am totally home-oriented; i would make a great domestic-type person. i don't like leaving home and i am always happy to return to it. but when life situations change, it's not good for the actual, physical house to be the center of the universe (so to speak) because it's often necessary to be flexible, to flow where life takes you.
i've always known we'd move eventually, and lately it feels like the universe is carrying us downstream in that direction. aside from the roof over our heads, there's no strict need to stay where we are, especially if other opportunities present themselves. this is where my mentality comes in. it's ok for change to be scary, but it's not ok for me to always believe change leads to something worse. looking back in my life, change has almost always brought something better my way, even if the process was frightening and/or stressful (and more often than not, it was stressful because of my disproportionate fear). on the occasions it didn't bring something better, i always survived, and came out the other end stronger for having dealt with it.
anyhoo, we're driving up to vallejo this afternoon to take a quick peek at a house that may or may not be available for rent in a few months. vallejo is located in the northeast part of the SF bay area, and though it's a bit further away from marin than we were originally thinking, it's a possibility worth exploring. housing certainly is cheaper up there.
the rest of the day is going to drag; i'm excited about seeing it. even if it doesn't pan out, it feels good to be thinking beyond tomorrow, or next week. i had to put future daydreaming on hold back when the future depressed me, but i'm working hard to have faith in positive outcomes, so daydreaming canz be allowed kthx. ^_^
love kittie