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Jan: happy 2008 everyone!
Feb: "dreams are the answers to questions we haven't figured out how to ask."
Mar: aiden's been in my life for just over a week now, but it feels like he's been here forever.
April: danny spotted a job on craig's list that is almost scarily identical to the artistic gig i had at stella page... different product, but almost the same job concept.
May: happy may day!
June: we just got back from seeing The Fall. oh. my. god.
July: my laptop came a day early! it's waiting at home for me as i speak! today is going to draaaaaag...
Aug: busy week incoming.
Sept: danny's sister becky stayed with us for a few days. that was very fun!
Oct: ok people, thank you so much for taking the time to fill out the poll.
Nov: in 2005, i went to kaiser because my back hurt.
Dec: so here's the breakdown. in the spring, i signed on to be mostly full-time with 2 clients.
i'm pleased that this doesn't reflect the fact that 2008 was, for the most part, chaotic. it lets me focus on the positive, sane aspects of the year -- and there were lots of those. in fact, looking back over 2008, there are only 2 things that caused stress. one was the boy, and that's over/done with; the other was work, and while that was stressful beyond belief, i've emerged a better, stronger, more confident person on the other end. while i was living 2008, i often felt awful, and often wanted the year to be over. but 2008 taught me a lot about myself, and what i need to be doing in my life; about who i should be around, who i shouldn't, and that i don't know everything yet, even though i often think i do. this was the first year i worked my own business full-time and guess what? it's not easy! ring the bells of surprise! i guess i always thought i'd skate along letting other people find me and do the work but... that's not how it works. i do believe that work would have been easier this year if i'd been able to view it as a learning process, but all i could see was the shortages. i'm not proud of this; i was unduly miserable. but that's the point of learning, right? to avoid repeating past mistakes? i've learned that work is largely a state of mind, and that even if there is none, people will take care of me until i get back on my feet. so really, when i think about it, 2008 taught me when to rely on others, when not to rely on others, what to rely (or not rely) on them for, and when to rely (or not rely) on myself.
love kittie