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i've written a lot lately about needing direction, craving insight, and the strong desire to flow with the current, not swim against it.
i've identified something that, to my very core, feels *right.* it feels like a compass needle aligning, and the thought of it working feels like floating down a sun dappled river in some sort of very comfy watercraft.
but it's hard to tell if that's any sort of insight, or if it's just a flight of fancy.
of course, one could argue that all moments of insight must be manifested in reality to become anything substantial. but that being said, could i just be creating insight where i wish to find it?
or do we all just create our own insights anyway?
i wish i were better at meditating.
i've said, time and time again, that sometimes i jump the gun, especially when i plan. i try to plan for every contingency -- and in the process, i become so overwhelmed, that i often scrap the whole idea entirely out of frustration and a "this just won't work!" mentality.
well... what if it could have worked? how was i to know?
this thing i want to do... i really want to do it. it feels so right. but when i think about it, i plan out steps 1 through 173, and a few minutes into it i just want to sit in the corner and cry out of frustration, because i just can't see it working out. but the thing is, i can't actually predict what will happen if i just try. i am jumping to conclusions, and as milo found out, that isn't a good island to land on.
capricorns are goats. we can scale the highest peaks and be sure-footed the entire way. but if we keep our eyes on the summit, we can forget to look at the ground in front of us, and that makes it easy to slip and fall...
this is a reminder, kittie: one step at a time. one hoof in front of the other. just get to the next rock. the rock after that one can wait until you're ready.
love kittie
i've identified something that, to my very core, feels *right.* it feels like a compass needle aligning, and the thought of it working feels like floating down a sun dappled river in some sort of very comfy watercraft.
but it's hard to tell if that's any sort of insight, or if it's just a flight of fancy.
of course, one could argue that all moments of insight must be manifested in reality to become anything substantial. but that being said, could i just be creating insight where i wish to find it?
or do we all just create our own insights anyway?
i wish i were better at meditating.
i've said, time and time again, that sometimes i jump the gun, especially when i plan. i try to plan for every contingency -- and in the process, i become so overwhelmed, that i often scrap the whole idea entirely out of frustration and a "this just won't work!" mentality.
well... what if it could have worked? how was i to know?
this thing i want to do... i really want to do it. it feels so right. but when i think about it, i plan out steps 1 through 173, and a few minutes into it i just want to sit in the corner and cry out of frustration, because i just can't see it working out. but the thing is, i can't actually predict what will happen if i just try. i am jumping to conclusions, and as milo found out, that isn't a good island to land on.
capricorns are goats. we can scale the highest peaks and be sure-footed the entire way. but if we keep our eyes on the summit, we can forget to look at the ground in front of us, and that makes it easy to slip and fall...
this is a reminder, kittie: one step at a time. one hoof in front of the other. just get to the next rock. the rock after that one can wait until you're ready.
love kittie