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i'm... free? i'm free. i'm free!
a little over a year after i first joined my fortunes to theirs, i find myself released from the sticky and oh-so-confusing grip of Smoothjazz.com.
long story short, they don't want to pay me anymore. i guess the idea of negotiating a logical and fair contract was too much for them. either that, or they're irriated by my attitude (which is business-oriented and, fairly enough IMO, hard-hearted). either that, or contractors are too much work.
it's probably the latter. they don't have much luck with contractors. i guarantee you that it's because they're not good at communicating with them.
so, farewell a couple extra bucks a month, and hello to my own two feet and peace of mind.
no matter how good/beneficial certain endings are for me, i always get scared when severence occurs. i've never been good at losing... not security, but the familiar. i get scared and wonder what i'll do now that that part of my life is over.
smoothjazz.com was special, too; it's the last part of my life in monterey to end. college ended. my romantic relationship with dave ended. my domestic situation there ended. smoothjazz.com was my last tie to the life i built in marina... and that feels a little scary, i'll admit it.
.... but i'm usually recovered pretty quickly. after all, it's hard to be sad/angry/insulted when my life is so excellent.
yes, despite the fact that i'm exhausted and that moving sucked donkey balls the size of canteloupes, my life is joyous, my friends are wonderful, my parents are logical and... well, i've got so much *good* out there, ahead of me.
so... yeah! bring me that horizon! and some rum too! kittie's 100% off to a brand new start!
^_^
love kittie
a little over a year after i first joined my fortunes to theirs, i find myself released from the sticky and oh-so-confusing grip of Smoothjazz.com.
long story short, they don't want to pay me anymore. i guess the idea of negotiating a logical and fair contract was too much for them. either that, or they're irriated by my attitude (which is business-oriented and, fairly enough IMO, hard-hearted). either that, or contractors are too much work.
it's probably the latter. they don't have much luck with contractors. i guarantee you that it's because they're not good at communicating with them.
so, farewell a couple extra bucks a month, and hello to my own two feet and peace of mind.
no matter how good/beneficial certain endings are for me, i always get scared when severence occurs. i've never been good at losing... not security, but the familiar. i get scared and wonder what i'll do now that that part of my life is over.
smoothjazz.com was special, too; it's the last part of my life in monterey to end. college ended. my romantic relationship with dave ended. my domestic situation there ended. smoothjazz.com was my last tie to the life i built in marina... and that feels a little scary, i'll admit it.
.... but i'm usually recovered pretty quickly. after all, it's hard to be sad/angry/insulted when my life is so excellent.
yes, despite the fact that i'm exhausted and that moving sucked donkey balls the size of canteloupes, my life is joyous, my friends are wonderful, my parents are logical and... well, i've got so much *good* out there, ahead of me.
so... yeah! bring me that horizon! and some rum too! kittie's 100% off to a brand new start!
^_^
love kittie