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ugh. we've reached that point in the smoothjazz love/hate cycle where i'm once again questioning if the extra money and the continued relationship is worth dealing with the overall crappiness of communication.
i don't get how two nice, normal, down to earth people can be so... clueless as to how things work. it baffles me.
but, this time around, i have the upper hand. i don't need their money; i do want it. i don't need their business connection; i do value it (professionally). and we're actually to the point where sandy might even properly negotiate a contractor's situation, instead of just muddling along, hoping it all works out, and then getting pissy when it doesn't.
the rough part is, i hate reading her emails in situations like this, because she's good at being manipulative and condescending. she's so good at it, she's not outright manipulative or condescending. she's really... well, she can wheel/deal like only a woman can.
but again -- i have the upper hand. i don't need anthing from them. so no matter how many emotional negatives this process dredges up, i'm not ready to simply say "screw you smoothjazz." it's good practice for me, dealing with things i'd instinctively avoid. it's like building up a callous on virgin guitar fingers.
love kittie
i don't get how two nice, normal, down to earth people can be so... clueless as to how things work. it baffles me.
but, this time around, i have the upper hand. i don't need their money; i do want it. i don't need their business connection; i do value it (professionally). and we're actually to the point where sandy might even properly negotiate a contractor's situation, instead of just muddling along, hoping it all works out, and then getting pissy when it doesn't.
the rough part is, i hate reading her emails in situations like this, because she's good at being manipulative and condescending. she's so good at it, she's not outright manipulative or condescending. she's really... well, she can wheel/deal like only a woman can.
but again -- i have the upper hand. i don't need anthing from them. so no matter how many emotional negatives this process dredges up, i'm not ready to simply say "screw you smoothjazz." it's good practice for me, dealing with things i'd instinctively avoid. it's like building up a callous on virgin guitar fingers.
love kittie