self reflection in the worst way
i was driving the other day, and i got to thinking...
i can remember being gay as early as 3rd grade....actually earlier. there was this girl, evie...she was in my...maybe 3rd or 4th grade class, i thought she was soooo cute. and i remember play fighting with caitlin ryan, back in 3rd grade, wrestling over shit, and i took it a little more erotically than a 3rd grader should. lol it's funny the shit u remember, isnt it. and the thing is, i dont have any young memories about liking boys. throughout middle school and high school, sure, i dated boys, as most of u know. and college, hell....but that was college. (blushes) but as a young kid, i dont remember ever really getting turned on by boys, only girls. and the "relationships" i had with boys, never meant much to me. (no offense to those of u) most of them were just sexual gratification, nothing serious, just conquests, entertainment if u will. girls though, ::sigh:: girls are amazing.
so i guess i always knew i would end up with a woman...it was just the rest of u that were in the dark. lol
i can remember being gay as early as 3rd grade....actually earlier. there was this girl, evie...she was in my...maybe 3rd or 4th grade class, i thought she was soooo cute. and i remember play fighting with caitlin ryan, back in 3rd grade, wrestling over shit, and i took it a little more erotically than a 3rd grader should. lol it's funny the shit u remember, isnt it. and the thing is, i dont have any young memories about liking boys. throughout middle school and high school, sure, i dated boys, as most of u know. and college, hell....but that was college. (blushes) but as a young kid, i dont remember ever really getting turned on by boys, only girls. and the "relationships" i had with boys, never meant much to me. (no offense to those of u) most of them were just sexual gratification, nothing serious, just conquests, entertainment if u will. girls though, ::sigh:: girls are amazing.
so i guess i always knew i would end up with a woman...it was just the rest of u that were in the dark. lol