Dec 22, 2006 14:37
my Buddhist tendencies are complimented or antagonized by equally potent anti-Buddhist tendencies. Why liken knowledge to purity, or wisdom to a diamond? I long for the oily wisdom of the mother-of-all crusty maiden. the earthen and vaginal unpure coal. She's nurturing, but devilish. Fickle bitch at times, warm and kind on other occasions. to dream of substance and truth can be just as moving as the mystic nothingnesses of the Tathagata. Sometimes I prefer to see the world for the unified binding mycelium. Sometimes I prefer to see it for the beatific individual fruiting-bodies studding the moist loam under a larch tree. Each singly different, but similar. Yin and yang in unperfect harmony. I peer down at grimy fingernails, feel fouled joints aching, and hear creaky cabbage palm fronds manipulated by the unpredictable breaths of weather inclement. this is enlightenment.
is enlightenment achieved or lost? is Nirvana lost in the very minute of its aquisition? For nirvana to be something would mean for it to be ephemereal and unlasting. So Nirvana is nothing, never to be purchased, won, loaned out, borrowed, stumbled upon. Ex nihilo nihil fit.
But gusts of enlightenment channel down through material canals all the time. What is just as likely is The thought of no-thought bestowing awakeness. But I found a conch shell in control-burned swards at Guana Tolomato Matanzas reserve out off A1A whose enlightenment-bestowal was manifest. actually, it was unavoidable. the Fibonacci sequence shew itself truly in the spiraling chambers of this shell. Oh unforgetable beauty does so often crop up in the material world.