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I'm having a slight panic attack, which, of course, means "write a post." ^__^ I got the information for one of the projects I've been working on today. This is a high profile emergency thing that we're doing extra fast because someone high up in the company wants it. Well, it turns out the data they sent me is wrong and they will have to redo it,
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They brought up the self confidence thing again tonight on the show, which I knew they would. I was thinking about it, and I wonder if it's a difference in what makes people feel good about themselves. For the judge, maybe she derives her sense of self confidence from other people's reactions. So when someone tells her, "You did well," she feels good about herself. When they say, "You did poorly," she feels bad. For other people, though, self confidence is something that comes from inside themselves. So whether other people say you did well or not doesn't change your sense of self. I think this is true for me and K. I'm always annoyed with her for letting other people's (particularly men's) reactions dictate her happiness (or that's how it seems to me.) But, I can see how she would be annoyed with me for not feeling happy when everyone (including some men) is telling me how great I am. When I look at it like that, I can see why the judge would feel annoyed. But I still think you need to be sensitive to people who don't think like you do. I would never tell K. "Oh, you're just feeling bad because some guy didn't respond the way you wanted. Grow up and start relying on yourself for a change." I think that sometimes, but don't think it would help if I said that. Nor can I say that having arbitrary internal standards for myself has done a lot of good for me. Maybe true self confidence comes from accepting yourself and other people for who they really are.
^___^ Sorry, it's just been on my mind, after watching the second part of the show. The guy got into the finals, though, so I'm happy about that.
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