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I'm having a slight panic attack, which, of course, means "write a post." ^__^ I got the information for one of the projects I've been working on today. This is a high profile emergency thing that we're doing extra fast because someone high up in the company wants it. Well, it turns out the data they sent me is wrong and they will have to redo it, which means a delay, which means the entire project might not be finished on time. It's really not my fault, except that I noticed the spreadsheet I got today was dated July 22. That means, it was available over a week ago but no one had bothered to tell me until today. It's not like I could have done anything with the data, even if I had noticed it was available, because I was still waiting for some other preliminary information that wasn't ready until today, but I might have noticed the mistake. I'm worried because I'm supposed to meet with my new boss in person this afternoon. My stomach is killing me! I feel like I can't even sit up straight, much less be friendly and smile and make a good impression on someone. I know it's stress. I just want this meeting to be over.
I've got a scanlating deadline coming up, too, that's also causing me a little stress, but that's not such a big deal. It's not like my income depends on it. And, overall, I'm feeling happy because I may have a new project soon. I get really depressed when I get close to finishing one, and I feel like I will never find something else that good to replace it, so it helps to know there are other possibilities out there. And it's not like this project is near done. But, as always, I'm constantly worried about future.
This is my last dance free week. It's too bad because I'm going to miss the finale of SYTYCD. I was a little annoyed last night with one of the judges (she always annoys me, but, this time, more than usual) because she kinda got upset with one of the dancers for saying he didn't have self-confidence. I guess she assumes that being exceptionally talented, you shouldn't have any self doubt at all. This is crazy. Self confidence has nothing to do with how smart or talented or exceptional you are. Some of the most brilliant people I've meet have very low self confidence. The best dancer I've ever seen in my entire life had low self confidence (which is probably why she never became super famous). These things are not related. And I feel frustrated with people who say things like, "I'm telling you you're talented. I've told you a thousand times. Why aren't you fixed?" That kind of thing only makes insecure people feel worse. I thought it was an honest thing for the guy to say. I don't think she had a right to be upset with someone for saying how he truly feels.
I'd kinda like him to win. I think he's one of the best dancers, and I like him as a person, too. But I'm going to be really upset if he wins and they start making a big deal about his low self confidence, like winning will cure him of this problem. You can't just tell someone, "You're good" and they will start to believe it, even if it's an entire television audience. I know people like a quick fix, but it just doesn't work that way.
EDIT: Oh, no! I've just had a disaster with loose powder! I was retouching my makeup before this meeting and I didn't put the lid back on this loose powder tube-thing tightly. It spilled all over me and my office. I keep leaving dust all over my clothes and everything I touch!
I've got a scanlating deadline coming up, too, that's also causing me a little stress, but that's not such a big deal. It's not like my income depends on it. And, overall, I'm feeling happy because I may have a new project soon. I get really depressed when I get close to finishing one, and I feel like I will never find something else that good to replace it, so it helps to know there are other possibilities out there. And it's not like this project is near done. But, as always, I'm constantly worried about future.
This is my last dance free week. It's too bad because I'm going to miss the finale of SYTYCD. I was a little annoyed last night with one of the judges (she always annoys me, but, this time, more than usual) because she kinda got upset with one of the dancers for saying he didn't have self-confidence. I guess she assumes that being exceptionally talented, you shouldn't have any self doubt at all. This is crazy. Self confidence has nothing to do with how smart or talented or exceptional you are. Some of the most brilliant people I've meet have very low self confidence. The best dancer I've ever seen in my entire life had low self confidence (which is probably why she never became super famous). These things are not related. And I feel frustrated with people who say things like, "I'm telling you you're talented. I've told you a thousand times. Why aren't you fixed?" That kind of thing only makes insecure people feel worse. I thought it was an honest thing for the guy to say. I don't think she had a right to be upset with someone for saying how he truly feels.
I'd kinda like him to win. I think he's one of the best dancers, and I like him as a person, too. But I'm going to be really upset if he wins and they start making a big deal about his low self confidence, like winning will cure him of this problem. You can't just tell someone, "You're good" and they will start to believe it, even if it's an entire television audience. I know people like a quick fix, but it just doesn't work that way.
EDIT: Oh, no! I've just had a disaster with loose powder! I was retouching my makeup before this meeting and I didn't put the lid back on this loose powder tube-thing tightly. It spilled all over me and my office. I keep leaving dust all over my clothes and everything I touch!