Please understand, it has to be this way.
It's time again.
Let's all pitty little miss mikki.
I dont realize how I treat people until it's too late.
I have unintentional expectations.
I really don't like the fact that I hated kevin, and I don't like the way I act towards him.
I don't like that I don't talk to chris.
I don't like that I feel obligated to call certain people when they don't call me back.
I don't like the fact that I feel like I need someone to call me back.
I don't like that I have this certain mind-set that I can't date someone because "we're too different"
I don't like hanging up on Kim.
I don't like waiting around for Marcus.
I don't like being angry with sarah.
I don't like that I throw things when I am mad.
I don't like that I can't cry in front of people.
I don't like the fact that I do cry.
I don't like the fact that I feel like I can't be there for my friends.
I don't like people telling me "you can't" "you aren't ready".
BULL SHIT.
I don't like the fact that I dont want to be friends with someone because I dont approve of the things they tend to do.
I don't like the fact that I get upset with stupid girls who are idiots.
I don't like the fact that I keep things to myself.
I don't like the fact that I talk shit about people.
Yea I do it, and it's fucking annoying.
I hate hearing people talk shit and even more, I hate talking about people, if I have something to say I will say it to your face.
I hate when people say I am ungrateful. You don't know me, and these are your opinions, we all have them, I get it, but fuck you for your incorrect assumptions.
I am annoyed with the fact that I can't get passed all this shit, like amanda said, it won't matter in a few years from now anyways.
Oh and since I am already pissed and I'll regret this anyways:
I hate you all who do drugs.
I am all for marijuana, if it is used for medical purposes then how harmful can it be?
But for all of you that think it was once cool to do meth, or smoke, yea, I'll miss you when you're dead and gone, but I won't ever regret saying this shit. People die from this, and yes everyone is different and yes people can do it for a lifetime and never die, but the side effects, my god kids, open up your eyes or a god damn book! You know that smoking kills you, you know it gives you strokes and lung cancer. You know that meth is addicting and gives you sores on your face. I'd much rather have a fat friend than I fucking skinny pale one. And don't you dare say I don't know what I am talking about. My aunt is fucking 30 years old and is a meth addict, and some of my friends family have died from it. You don't understand how much pain you cause a person with your selfish acts. People die everyday, but you guys are pretty much saying, "hey, I want to die, I am going to continue to kill myself slowly."
I'm sorry I don't want to be friends with you.
I am sorry I don't call you back.
I am sorry I don't call you to tell you happy birthday.
You're all totally different people from who we used to be.
I'm a bitch, and I have more attitude that ever before, but it's not going to kill me, and for that I think of my self a much better person than all of you who do drugs.
Let's all pitty little miss mikki.
I dont realize how I treat people until it's too late.
I have unintentional expectations.
I really don't like the fact that I hated kevin, and I don't like the way I act towards him.
I don't like that I don't talk to chris.
I don't like that I feel obligated to call certain people when they don't call me back.
I don't like the fact that I feel like I need someone to call me back.
I don't like that I have this certain mind-set that I can't date someone because "we're too different"
I don't like hanging up on Kim.
I don't like waiting around for Marcus.
I don't like being angry with sarah.
I don't like that I throw things when I am mad.
I don't like that I can't cry in front of people.
I don't like the fact that I do cry.
I don't like the fact that I feel like I can't be there for my friends.
I don't like people telling me "you can't" "you aren't ready".
BULL SHIT.
I don't like the fact that I dont want to be friends with someone because I dont approve of the things they tend to do.
I don't like the fact that I get upset with stupid girls who are idiots.
I don't like the fact that I keep things to myself.
I don't like the fact that I talk shit about people.
Yea I do it, and it's fucking annoying.
I hate hearing people talk shit and even more, I hate talking about people, if I have something to say I will say it to your face.
I hate when people say I am ungrateful. You don't know me, and these are your opinions, we all have them, I get it, but fuck you for your incorrect assumptions.
I am annoyed with the fact that I can't get passed all this shit, like amanda said, it won't matter in a few years from now anyways.
Oh and since I am already pissed and I'll regret this anyways:
I hate you all who do drugs.
I am all for marijuana, if it is used for medical purposes then how harmful can it be?
But for all of you that think it was once cool to do meth, or smoke, yea, I'll miss you when you're dead and gone, but I won't ever regret saying this shit. People die from this, and yes everyone is different and yes people can do it for a lifetime and never die, but the side effects, my god kids, open up your eyes or a god damn book! You know that smoking kills you, you know it gives you strokes and lung cancer. You know that meth is addicting and gives you sores on your face. I'd much rather have a fat friend than I fucking skinny pale one. And don't you dare say I don't know what I am talking about. My aunt is fucking 30 years old and is a meth addict, and some of my friends family have died from it. You don't understand how much pain you cause a person with your selfish acts. People die everyday, but you guys are pretty much saying, "hey, I want to die, I am going to continue to kill myself slowly."
I'm sorry I don't want to be friends with you.
I am sorry I don't call you back.
I am sorry I don't call you to tell you happy birthday.
You're all totally different people from who we used to be.
I'm a bitch, and I have more attitude that ever before, but it's not going to kill me, and for that I think of my self a much better person than all of you who do drugs.